I'll beg you not to leave me but scream at you to go.
I'll hold you when we are together and push you away when we are apart.
I'll tell you sweet little nothings.
I'll tell you the plans that I have for us
But then when you tell me you love me
When you say that you want me forever
When you say that you want me to be only yours forever
that's when
I'll tell you that I can't, that I'm not ready for you, or that I'm not okay.
I'll give you a million excuses for why I can't love you.
But that isn't because you couldn't love me; it's because I couldn't love the broken parts of me. So with every "I love you" I will run in fear of myself.
