𝘈𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘚𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘮- 𝗖𝗹𝗲𝗮𝗿 𝗦𝗸𝗶𝗲𝘀 (Book Two)

68

🌸ڿڰۣ-P̠O̠V̠ P̠a̠t̠r̠i̠c̠e̠

"Watch hotness," Petrice called out as I left my room and came to stand in the living room where everyone had gathered. "Gyal yuh neva affi tan good suh."

I cut my eyes playfully at her as I stared at all the people I loved and cared for. It was a blessing to see my mother settle in with them all.

My stepfather and my siblings would be arriving in two days and you could only imagine the excitement that is erupting from Mama and the girls.

Deenie was over the moon already in being able to be a part of OD's life and his family and to now have her grandmother and her other children spending the remainder of the Summer as well she was on cloud nine.

"Mummy yuh pretty," she chimed as she ate from the plate of diced ripe bananas drenched in condensed milk nestled on her lap.

I must remember to call and ask Uncle to get some Semi Contra when he's coming from his field and ensure Mama sort out both her and Jay.

I only hope Deenie knows she has a worm out due before her returning to school September.

Jay who was sitting there purposefully licking off the condensed milk and putting back the bananas in the plate much to Deenie's ignorance smiled sweetly at me.

I gave a small chuckle as I look back to my sister who was nestled against her husband oblivious at the moment to what Jay was sneakingly doing as she was engrossed in whatever she was spelling out on her man's bare upper arm with her acrylic neon pink, yellow and green marble design coffin nail on her index finger.

Gyal naah lef ar man an inch, my inner voice said then added as the demon in me rise to the occasion. A cudda did yuh n Medz dat but yuh run lef e.

I look away from them and fish my phone from my studded clutch as a means of distraction. I did not want anyone to pick up on the melancholy feelings that were now bombarding me.

To say I miss Medz was an understatement he was in my every thought and at nights he plagued my dreams in ways that left me drenched in sweat and raging with need.

I shook my head to rid my mind of how close I came to relieving myself of the frustration between my legs with my little toy nestled in my panty drawer. If only it hadn't decided to vibrate like the wings of a bat from hell in the silence of my room I might have succumbed.

I tried touching myself instead but all I needed was Maleeks sweet carress so instead I lay there and cried on my pillow tears of regret and longing.

I felt a familiar arm wrap itself around my shoulder and I nestled into Mama and inhaled her comforting scent. It was good to have her back, the days pass when we were estranged had left its toll on me.

"Yuh duh wah mi seh?"

I know what she was referring and I shook my head. There was no use telling her a lie.

She took me and lead me to the verandah and stood for a second just looking at me before she spoke.

"Where is that determine girl that always decides that comes what may she is going to do what she mus eee?"

"Mama that girl causes too much heartache for the people she claims to love," I told her looking back at how much pain it had cause both her and my mother my wanting my own selfish needs met.

"Shush chile," she said in mild irritation. "Peggy mi proud a yuh fi yuh strength and you determination. Yuh is a brave girl. Wanting to love and be loved is not selfish. It's us who sat by and let our pride turn this family inside out to be blamed."