Tiny Step's (MDLG Story.) Slow Updates.

Chapter FORTY-FOUR.

[FORTY-FOUR]

(Time 9 o'clock a.m. Sunday Still)

Elena Shaw's (POV) (Again.)

Racing up the stairs I take a breath and walk into the nursery, the moment I step inside my heart aches seeing my baby in such a state standing and clinging to the bars of her crib. Cooing I quickly walk towards her saying, "Oh, baby girl momma is right here sweetheart." She hiccups and when she hears my voice and makes grabby hands at me once she sees me. Picking her up on my hip I rock her and start swaying as I kiss her head, hearing her sniffle as she snuggles into me and clings to me like a baby monkey. I pat her bottom seeing it is wet, but I know she will not let me change her until she is fully calm. walking towards the changing table I open and grab a wet wipe to clean her face, oh how my girl hates it but lets me clean her up. kissing her cheek again I whisper, "Did momma's baby have a bad dream love is that why you are so upset, I know you missed me last night precious, but momma had something very important to handle."

I hate myself for leaving her, but I needed to wipe that scum who hurt her off the face of the earth. But I before that I had to car into them everything they did to those babies and my baby, how a person could do such things haunts me to my core. Feeling her relaxing I smile seeing her suck her thumb but shake my head saying, "How about momma changes this nasty diaper than you can some milky hmm..." she just blinks up and at me rubbing my nose against hers I finally get a small smile. Smiling back, I go to lay her down and she wines gripping my shirt tighter. Frowning I wonder what she dreamed of. I know that was the first time away from me for so long as well. Rubbing her back kiss her head again saying, "Oh my love, momma is sorry she left you so long with aunty Kelly. I am hear now love and I will not leave you for so long again if I can help it momma promise."

I know she may not understand fully since she is still in her infant head space, but I still feel I need to reassure her in anyway possible. Singing lightly to her I whisper in her ear, "Momma loves you so, so much baby." Hating myself when I pry her hands from my shit I lay he down on the changing table as she cries' her little heart out and I quickly change her diaper and put her in a new onesie, leggings, and some warm fuzzy socks. By the time she is back in my arms my baby girl is so upset and red in the face. Whimper I kiss her head and set down in the rocking chair as I pull my shirt up, not putting a bra on this morning she has ease access to nurse. Quickly but gently, I get her to latch on and she finally calms down to sniffles as I hear her loud suckles as I watch her nurse.

Sniffling I wipe my own tears away patting her bottom saying, "Momma is so sorry baby bean, I love you so, so much." Caressing her cheek and up I run my fingers through her messy morning curls, they are always so pronounced when she wakes or after using the hair dryer on her hair. My precious and beautiful girl kissing her forehead I smile as I see she is finally relaxed enough her face is no long full-on fire hydrant red. Her little hand reaches up playing with my right breast and I smile seeing her fully in a milk daze. Once she fully finishes nursing she is usually in a full milk coma for like an hour or more if she falls to sleep. She wiggles and grunts as she tugs on my nipple and I wince a little but smile saying, "Is your milky good this morning baby girl hmm?, do not worry baby girl there is still more." she blinks and smiles letting some milk run down her cheek and I chuckle wiping it up with my shirt saying, "Such a happy baby hmm..."

After last night I needed this, needed her to know she is ok and safe, that I did not just dream her into existence from my grievance over Jenny. But from all the talks and time we have had together I know she is mine fully and I am hers. Switching her to my right bread I keep rock us as I listen to the clock in the room tick, it is these moments that are the best the calm ones fully of love and peace that makes life worth living. We have gotten to talk about our futures together and I we will be together for the rest of our lives. Hearing a light tap I look up and smile seeing Kelly leaning against the door frame smiling and I chuckle lightly. Smiling I relax more saying, "Sorry we didn't come back down she was super cranky and clingy when I tried change her diaper." She nods and smiles saying, "I don't doubt that she was so not happy most of the night I am just glad she got some sleep."