Tiny Step's (MDLG Story.) Slow Updates.

Chapter FIFTY-TWO.

[FIFTY-TWO.]

(Time Skip Thursday Morning.)

Elena Shaw's (POV) (Still)

I have been up not after my time at the wear house the things that I had to do is one of the hardest thing to do when your body and mind are fighting weather something is wrong or right. I wish I could talk to someone fully about things from my other side, but anyone would see me as a monster right?... I mean I am doing it as a means to stop those who are the worst of the worst when it comes to cry as I see it and what they told me last night is disgusting. I may have helped the authorities start the process of taking down cell after cells for who human traffickers, sex workers, child abusers and so on but I still feel it tearing me apart. But I have been this way since I was old enough to know what is wrong I more ways than one. When I was first recruited into the FBI and a few branches of the CIA I had went in not knowing I would be one of the top searchers for these types of people and yet I am and by the time training and my first round of cases I have been different. Seeing these things changes a person and I hope I am still the caring person I am by the time I retire.

Yet it seems they just keep popping up and I know it will never end there is always really sick people in the world and when I stop I hope there is another to take over even when It condemns them to the monster they will become and have to conceal it to those they love in fear of losing them. shivering I wrap the blanket I have around me tighter and look over seeing my baby still soundly asleep in peace. Her nightmares have stopped since the night and time we spent with the Randle's and plan to keep them close not just for her but for me. because they are both like mothers to me and it shocks me, yet I know I need them in my life. I have always been the mother to those around me since my own stopped giving a shit about me. yet I was missing something, and I found it with these two women, stranger who have made me feel like my old self before everything changed.

Reaching out I gently move the hair out of my baby's face gently, she was so excited and happy when I took her to Kelly's she missed her so much and I felt what she did because I miss my sister too. Kell has always been here even though she doesn't fully know me since before I started being trained to be an interrogator for those at the top one of the reasons I have never been arrested for taking care of the scum of the earth is because one they trained me for it and two they know I would take everyone down with me if it came to us being seen as corrupt. I would take my punishment as seen fit, but I would not let my baby be wrapped up in it. I would have her whisked away to be protected and those who know me know not to ever lay a hand on her after I took care of those who already had. Sniffling I wipe away my tears embarrassed and saddened by my thoughts, so I put them to the back of my head and lock away my darker side wanting to just be with my baby and in our bubble for the rest of our lives.

That means protecting us and I will do everything in my power to do so. Looking over at the clock I see it is not even six in the morning and I groan. I won't be sleeping anytime soon, most of the times after my torture sessions I can't sleep for a few days, and I just got over a burst of sleepless nights and I hope I don't have many this time around. Esme squirms around sucking her dino paci making me smile once again, she is so beautiful and adorable I just fall for her over and over each time I look at her. she was in her two-year-old head space when I left her with Kelly but she was asleep when I picked her up so I don't know what head space she will be in the morning. I just love seeing every side of her and getting to take care of her. It gives me such love and peace that I am glad we found one another. She scrunches up her face in her sleep making me giggle and quickly cover my mouth not to wake her.

I will never get old of all of her facial expressions she is like a living story book expression her emotions one after another in a rush when she is awake. As well as when asleep, sometimes I am in awe at how she is knowing how special she is in general and too me. being as quiet as I can I stand out of bed laying the blanket down, I grab all the extra pillows and lay them around my baby making sure she is safe. Then I kiss her forehead, grab the baby monitor walkie, and go into the bathroom leaving the door open as I do. Setting the walkie down I go and turn on the bath to steaming hot and add my bubble bath and scented oils. Swirling them around and having the scent of oranges, pineapple and lavender moving through the room with the steam from the hot water. Smiling I breath it in feeling my body relax making me sigh, stretching out I strip out of my baby blue silk night shorts and spaghetti strap shirt. once I am naked I step into the bath and sink down and as the water moves over my skin I can't help but get a little tingle down below which causes me to blush.