Midnight Snow

Chapter 15

THERESE

Hindi padin ma process ng utak ko ang nangyare nung isang araw it's been days ng dumaan ang weekends 4days to be precise because everything happened last Friday night and it's already Tuesday today but nonetheless it still feels magical like I'm in cloud nine but I can't properly enjoy it at the moment not with the situation at hand

But one thing I can't properly process is that after the kiss we shared she just push me and run off somewhere ,I tried looking for her everywhere even contacting her but she's nowhere to be found.

I just heard from her friends na nakauwi na sya it ease my worry but she could've at least reply to my messages

I can't comprehend what her actions meant I mean she kissed me back that should mean something right I'm still trying to reach her pero wala talaga hayst where are you Eloise

"Earth to you Rese" calista uttered na hindi komanlang napansin kung hindi ako nito kinulbit

We're here sa cafeteria right now and it's our lunch break Tuesday na ngayon but yesterday I tried looking for Eloise ang kaso wala sya sa office nya and even sa class so I assumed na absent ito and I was right

"You look bothered is something wrong" Andy asked

"I notice it as well simula na biglang umalis si miss dixon nung gabi ay parang naging sabog kana bigla I mean sabog kanaman araw araw kaso iba ngayon"

"No nothing's wrong don't worry about me" They all look at me intently observing every body movement to determine if I'm lying

Well kinda true recently I just find myself na tulala. It actually feels good that I've got to admit to myself already that I like her because that only means I'm not numb because for the 20 years of my existence I have always thought that I can't feel that so called affection but look how things turned for me far from what I have Imagine because in a very young age I have always plan my future ahead and this unexpected turn was never a part of it which changed my perspective How unbelievable a cold woman could easily change that.

I can't take this feelings right now because I just wanna see her so badly and talk to her I know I have crossed the line because she's my professor but I think I can't take it if I did not took that risk dahil maiiwan lang ako ng puro what ifs or regrets and ayaw ko naman ng ganon .it feels something will change after what I did and I pray to God na wag naman

"Hey rese you're zoning out again" Gosh again I did not even notice that once more sya nanamn iniisip ko damn it iba ang epekto mosakin Eloise

"So now we're not convince that you're okay but we won't force you to say anything we respect you and it's not your obligation to tell us unless you're ready but we just want you to know that were just here for you Rese" patrick stated

He's right though I don't think I'm ready yet na sabihin sakanila ang nararamdaman ko kay maam especially I've just confirmed it

"Thankyou" That's all I said I'm really not in the mood to talk much

"Nga pala anong club sasalihan nyo?"

"Baka Literature para basabasa lang" sabi ni andy well that's given this girl is whipped with her books she's also the person that influence me to read kaya ayun nagkalibrary ng dis oras sa bahay

"Art club siguro baka madaming papi don pangrap ko kase talaga maging si jack ng titanic tas hanap ako ng ross kodon na pwede idrawing HAHAH alangan namang rose diba yuck"

I don't think need kopa sabihin who said that I'm sure kilala nyo na kung sino.While they were busy talking I decided to roam my eyes around the cafeteria hoping to find those familiar orbs.I saw her friends but to my dismay she's nowhere to be found. maybe she's absent again I hope she's ok wherever she is