The Alpha Diary

Truth

My ears are in total denial, my throat blocked my words from coming out of my mouth. My heart is feeling like someone stabbed me again and again with a sharpest knife.

"OHH! BUT HE DIDN'T COME HERE FROM LAST 1 WEEK NONG"

This same line was reverberating in my mind.

Before i broke down in front of everyone,I ran towards car, controlling my tears.

I can't cry in front of driver, he will tell p'phayu, I did fake drama of falling asleep the whole ride to avoid his questions.

I went inside house,...where was he!?, Was he cheating on me!?? Why did he lie!?? Is he was also lying about he loves me!? Did he find someone new!?? How long was he doing this!??...the thoughts were just coming like a cloud burst in my mind.

I didn't realise "dad" was calling me until he loud his voice.

"Rain bub" what happened are you ok"..

"Hmm....ye...yes dad..it's jus...just... I'm not feeling go...good." my throat is sore and words are coming in stuttering way.

Should i ask dad...he will not lie to me right?....ya i can ask him...

"Umm...dad where is p'phayu he is been very busy lately"

"Ohh bub he is in office as usual, and it's some foreign deal bub....it's really important so he been busy handling it"....

My heart feels like, it gonna stop anytime soon, I was not expecting"dad" to lie to me..."was everything they did is just lie? "he loved me like his own son Or he didn't loved me at all!??.

I went to room after "dad's reply, I just sat on bed trying to catch some oxygen....

"He loves you rain", "he proposed you", "he promised to marry you rain", "stop overthinking", "he loves you", "you are his omega", "there must be some reason behind all this"just ask him....

I kept denying, the negative thoughts, but they are overlapping my mind. I want to trust him...but what if.....what if everything I'm thinking is truee...."No no you asshole rain....you must trust your Alpha...yo---you must-t trust hi..m.

There is all dark outside, moonlight is glittering, I always fall asleep at this time. But now there is no trace of any sleepiness in my eyes which are crying from the time i came in room.

He is still not come yet, i will wait for him, i will confront him today.

It's almost 2:50 Am , The door finally opened from outside, as p'phayu entered. I wiped my tears hurriedly.

"Hii monkey....you didn't sleep yet" He said while taking off his shirt, He was looking tired and exhausted as I was expecting, new scratch marks on his neck definately not given by me.

"Baby...." He asked again as i didn't answer him before.

"Phii!?

"Yus Kitty"

"Where were you".... I saw some nervousness on his face. After my question.

"As usual baby"...he said without looking at me, still taking off his remaining clothes.

I stood from my bed and picked up my suitcase, started packing my clothes..."I should leave this place he don't love me anymore! he found someone else!!

"Kitty what are you doing...? What happened? He asked me in worried voice, but is he really worried!or just acting out.

He called me continuously but I didn't dare to listen and just keep filling my suitcase, I don't even know what I am packing.