Mid December, 2023
Drip.
Drip.
Me: What college are you going to when we graduate?
Zeri: I'm not sure yet. How about you?
Me: I don't know, either. I was thinking we could go to the same college like we planned when were little.
Zeri: Yeah.
Me: You don't want to?
Zeri: Sure. Aren't you going to study engineering?
Me: I don't have to. Most schools have an engineering program, though.
Zeri: But, you're crazy smart, Ekko. Shouldn't you go to a top school?
Me: Maybe?
Zeri: I'm sure you could get into any college you wanted to.
Me: Yeah, but I want us to be together. Don't you want that?
Zeri: I guess.
Me: What?
Zeri: It's nothing. Do you have any ideas? That way I can consider my prospects.
Me: I was thinking of either U.T. or Stanford. Staying in the city might be good.
Zeri: I'm not sure if I can get into either of those schools.
Me: Of course, you can. I can tutor you if you aren't sure about your grades.
Zeri: I know you would. I'll think about it.
Me: Great! I know we can be together like we planned, so no worries.
Zeri: Yeah.
Drip.
Drip.
* * * * * * * * * *
The months that passed were some of the hardest I've had to endure in a long time. I searched everywhere for relief. True to her word, Jinx didn't abandon me. She didn't stand in my way, she didn't push, and she didn't cry.
The guilt I felt towards her reached astronomical levels. Just looking at her sent me into depression.
Why was she so good to me?
Why did she love me so much?
I had no answers, only questions. I even scheduled a couple of sessions with a therapist, which felt like a complete waste of money. Something deep-rooted was built in to sabotage me at every turn.
One day as I was doing my best to lose myself in work, I got a message from Vi.
Violet: Ekko...how are u holdin up dude?
You: Not good.
Violet: i thought so. why don't you come to visit me next weekend?
You: You mean drive to Las Vegas?
Violet: yep. u can meet Cait too.
You: What about Pow? I think she has a conference that weekend.
Violet: i know that's why I suggested ti.
You: Alright.
Violet: coo. i'll get everything setup and send u more info later. look forward to seeing you again.
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