Broken Birds

One

Success.
What in this world is better than success?

Nothing.
It gives you pride, confidence and happiness. I realized that when I was 9years old. You might think I was too young but I was 9years too late.

Money and success isn't the same thing and it seems people still haven't realized that.

Thieves have money, sex workers could have money, unemployed and uneducated people could have money, social media influencers could have money but not success.

People do not understand the real definition of success. Knowledge, wisdom, intelligence, percipience they make up success and as long as none of them are included then you're just rich but not successful.

My father you see is an example of a rich but unsuccessful man. He was into politics, he's one of the many who just shoved money that didn't belong to him in his pockets and whether I'd like to admit it or not the reality is that, that money he stole is the reason why I'm here today.

So I try not to judge him, all my success is thanks to him so the best I can do is do things differently, for myself and for my family.

My parents had four of us and I'm the first then my younger brother and then my younger sisters, they're twins. The girls are currently schooling in Netherlands and my brother just got a job at the company I work but one thing my three siblings have in similar and I don't is that they're all so lazy, the idea of spending money they don't deserve or worked for excites them.

Only thing is making money the halal and proud way isn't easy. It's time consuming and often not always a success or at least they're failures every once in a while but what's life without failing?

I want to be someone my wife and children will be proud of and I'm at an age where I should be married but I'm really picky when it comes to women. I don't care about dating and all that, I just want someone who's like me, someone who can take care of our kids, someone who isn't lazy, someone who has a mind of her own, someone that doesn't need to depend on me but I'd like her to.

Knowing a woman depends on you because she chose to, that's what I want. When I say depend I mean financially, I'd prefer my wife to stay home, I'll spend on her and make her happy but I want to marry a woman who doesn't need my money. It's a bit confusing but that's what I want.

Relationships have never been my forte but I've been told that it's necessary so I've met a few women and went on a few blind dates but none seem to be my type. It's so hard to find the right woman and maybe I've already given up on that, I've decided to focus on work and maybe eventually she'll show up.

I know most introductions starts with "thyself" but I didn't. When you get to know me as a person you realize that I'm pretty much boring, very boring.

I'm an AI engineer (Artificial Intelligence) at a tech company and I make 7 figures, that's the only thing people find interesting about me. They automatically say "You must be rich" or "You must be really smart", believe me I know how rich and smart I am and that's why I have to work really hard.

AI is now seen as one of the most lucrative careers in the world and all the top tier companies are scrambling to hire the best talent with the right skill set. Then there is the rather high AI engineer salary scale that have galvanized interest in the field.

Somehow the conversation is now back to my work. It's really all that matters to me at the moment. Except coding my only other hobbies are playing video games and listening to audio books. I like books but when it's read to me.

The only thing that doesn't correspond with my attitude is that I'm not really antisocial but I'm not really social either. Although I do dislike unnecessary conversations and noise but I could hang, not for too long though. Socializing for three hours gets me more tired than working 24hours.

Anyway, I should mention that I'm not so close with my brother. He seems to dislike me and I don't know why. I don't like how my father made his money but I'm grateful to him and I avoid spending any of his money, I have mine now anyway. My mother and sisters, well those three only care about buying the best of everything.

I got my brother a job at my company because he's lazy, he just wants to sit home and spend money he didn't make and because I'm valued at the company they gave him a good position. I just hope he doesn't throw my name in the mud, he's done that a lot while we were growing up.

Anyway, that's really it.
All of it.
Like I said, there's not much to it.

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