I hate empathy sometimes. Not because it makes me a people pleaser or because it makes me want random people to be my friend. No, not that. I've lived with that my whole life, and yet not once has it made me feel this pain. In my deepest memories I remember learning of something... interesting, but depressing aswell to say the least. That you mind can't tell the difference between fiction and reality, that it makes you feel emotional no matter which world its in. It makes you feel empathy.
Something about me though is that, no matter how much emotion I can feel in myself, the emotion of someone who I have formed soft spot for is even stronger. I never feel this pain when I'm in reality anymore, it seems that real people nolonger affect me like they did when I was younger. I no longer have the mental state or personality to know how someone's feeling. But, it's different with fictional characters, especially the ones I adore/favorite. I feel what they are feeling, even if the story isn't told through their eyes. But, there is a catch to feeling their emotions. I can only feel their bad negative emotions.
I hate empathy sometimes, because it puts me in their shoes, their lives, their emotions, their P A I N. It stabs my chest like a katana aiming at it's target. My ribs clenching around my heart trying to desperately protect it from the heart ranching scene of sorrow within the words of the author. But, it always fails, so I'm left with an aching throb in my chest. But, I know it's not mine. This suffering is the characters, not mine. I don't care for the affliction of the character right now, but I can feel it. I feel it, because I can see it in my mind. The words of an author - if written correctly - can make you visualize the scene in your head. That's what affects me.
I know why reality for me no longer effects me. I find comfort in the worlds of fantasy. A place that as kids, everyone thought could never hurt them. But those were fairy tales, told to children for disapline and to belive the world is a safe place just like the world's in the movies and books. But there's a time when people tell you; "Get your head out the clouds." others might say, "Wake up, this is the real world." or maybe, "Your fantasy worlds are
FAKE! Wake up and grow up, you're not a kid anymore." . Well that last one I tall myself sometimes.
Sorry for not posting, I got alot on my mind
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2/18/23
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Poesíathis will be mostly poems and small storys, but sometimes I'll add some vent stuff aswell. I'm going to try to post 2 times a week. All the poems, stories, etc belong to me. So please don't take credit. If you do use them tell me beforehand so I can...
