Mists of Celeste - an Ateez Fanfic

act seven ➻ part one

warnings: talks of abuse & violence, minor violence, smut

────────────

What rots away at your insides in the days that follow is nothing pretty — a deep profound obsession that drives your hatred towards a particular man into the skin until it sits engraved there, with wounds oozing blood all the while.

"Have you seen Nightingale around?"

Soojin jerks her chin up at the sudden interruption of your voice cutting through whatever pretty silence she constructed for herself. You feel bad, though only mildly, for disturbing her without warning. It's become somewhat common to find her in the mess hall these days, with Luca off to the side with the two resident Berserkers. Your stare lingers on Mingi for a few more seconds than necessary. The last conversation you shared with the man rings in your ears like it was mere minutes ago and not several days.

"Um, training room I think? That's where he's been hanging around at least." Soojin passes you a little half-hearted smile. You don't doubt that your discomfort and likely unabashed anger is on full display to her; however, she opts not to ask further about your reasons for asking, so you deign not to say anything other than a quiet 'thank you' and nod your head.

Mingi shifts where he's kneeling close to the child. His gaze finds yours the second you turn to head out, stopping you in your tracks and forcing you to return the fierce eye contact for several seconds. You let it stagnate for too long, apparently, because the Berserker stands without warning and moves in your direction. You don't consider your next move to be one of avoidance, though it must look like that to anyone else aside from you with how you retreat the way you came and head for the arched doorway leading out. Mingi persists still.

"Ghost."

"Yes?" You only stop to turn when the two of you are far enough away from both Soojin and Jongho.

"I hope what I said to you the other night hasn't been on your mind too much."

"...Hardly." Something else has been in its place — a messy conglomeration of anger, frustration, and other emotions you haven't paused to address internally yet. You got to see the full picture Mingi had been painting for you that night days later in any case.

"That's—" he inhales sharply and goes rigid for a moment, so still that you almost think someone has crept up behind you to interrupt the conversation but it's still just the two of you near the edge of the room. A noise of realization slips from your lips. How hard is it to lie to a man who can feel every bit of the emotions radiating off you in waves?

"I understand what you meant now. I do."

"I had wished to apologize and to... to let you know that what I said was untrue. I apologize for misleading you." Mingi's expression is surprisingly genuine in comparison to his words, though you know you won't find whatever sincerity you seek in his tone regardless.

"I don't believe that," you start in a whisper, "and I doubt you do either."

Mingi's full lips twitch into what seems to be a fight against a smile.

"Ever so perceptive."

"Were you ordered to apologize?"

"No." Mingi smiles truly now. Without showing his teeth in any fashion, the gesture comes across as more terrifying than reassuring. "What I said to you was my personal opinion. I cannot be crucified for an opinion. I'm telling you that I was wrong because my opinion has changed. Although, perhaps there is nothing and no one more dangerous than a woman scorned." You duck your chin as you laugh, trying to hide the noise behind your hand, though when you look back up at Mingi, he is chuckling too. "Yunho told me that once, you can blame him."