Dance 4 You

Be With You

I'd rather be with you
Because I love the way you scream my name
And there's no other man that gives me what I want
And makes me feel this way
I'd rather be with you because you hustle hard
To take care of me
I'd rather be with you
Boy I'd rather be with you (I'd rather be with you)
Boy I'd rather be with you

I finally got my cast off, I walked outside and waited for Chris to pick me up. I asked him to pick me up so we can talk. He pulled up in his car and I got in. "Hey, lil man." He said, pecking my lips.

"Hey, Chris... I got a question." I started as he drove off. "yea?"  "What are we?" I asked. "What do you want to be?" "I don't know, I'll think about it."

Chris dropped me off and I went inside, Bryson should be home from work by now. I still haven't told him why I was suspended or about me and Chris, I feel like he would go crazy or something.

"Finally that damn cast is off." He said when I walked through the door. I chuckled and sat on the couch with him. "When you gon tell me why you were suspended?" He asked. "Soon." He raised an eyebrow.

We sat and watched tv for an hour before I went upstairs. I sat on my bed looking into space, bored. I don't know what to do. I'll go to the park I guess.

I changed out my clothes and put on a t-shirt and some shorts to go outside "I'm going to the park!" I announced to Bryson, whose still sitting on the couch. "Alright."

I left and started walking to the park. I put my earbuds in and Be With You started playing. I nodded my head to the beat as I walked up to the park. Little kids were playing on the playset and some teenagers were smoking under the playset.

Two middle-aged men were having a 1v1 on the basketball court, On the other court two young women were also having a 1v1.

I grabbed a basketball and shot some free throws. I made most of them. A group of boys came over to me, they looked about 14-15, so my age. "Yo this our court." The obvious leader said. "my bad." I said, walking to the other court to avoid confrontation

"Yo, this is also our court, we suggest you skip on out of here pussy ass" I decided to ignore them this time. I shot a free throw and made it. "He thinks he's big and bad." One said. I rolled my eyes and walked towards the ball rack.

I put the ball back and walked over to a free bench I sat down and watched the sun go down. I decided this would be a good time to go home. So I got up and walked home. "It's so fucking cold out here," I whispered to myself. It's that time of year when it's hot as hell outside during the day but cold as fuck during the night.

The streetlights turned on and I started running home, I'm not finna be out here in the dark by myself, get somebody else to do it.

I jumped up on my porch and opened the door. I look at the dark night before closing the door and locking it.

"Damn you're all out of breath n shit, Dinner is in the fridge," Bryson said, sitting in the same spot he was at when I left.

I got my dinner and Microwaved it. When It finished I ate at the table, Bryson came and sat with me. "I forgot to ask what happened at mom's house?" "Oh, So mom went somewhere and Deandre was supposed to punish me for getting suspended, he was slapping me and punching me, then they tried to make me eat spaghetti." I shrugged before eating my food.

"ok." He nodded his head like he's up to something.

When I finished my food I put the dish in the sink and went upstairs. I lay on my bed and all I can think about is Chris. Fuck it I need to call him.

I called and he answered quickly. "I thought about it," I said as soon as it loaded. "I wanna Be With You." "I wanna be with you too, I love you so fucking much," Chris said. "I can't stop thinking about you," I admitted, rolling onto my back. "You been on my mind 24/7 lil man, since the first day I saw you I wanted you." he winked.

"I want to see you tomorrow, let's go on a date," I suggested. "Ok, I'll pick you up."

We talked on the phone for almost an hour before he went to sleep.

I grabbed my suspension sheet and went straight to Bryson's room. "Bryson? Can I talk to you?" "Yea wassup?" He said, patting his bed so I can sit.

"I was suspended because..." I handed him the paper that explained why I was suspended.

He just looked at me from over the paper. "And, I'm gay... I'm also dating Chris." I just dropped 3 bombs on this mother fucker.

"Ok, at least you know. I'm going outside for a while." He got up and left me in the room by myself. I started to regret telling him, and my anxiety kicked in.

What if he hates me now, what if he sends me to live with my mom? Is he going to kick me out? Is he homophobic? Is he going to stop tutoring Chris because of me? Is he disappointed in me? He's probably mad. I'm definitely getting kicked out.

I don't know how I'll feel if he was mad at me, I see him as a father and I didn't want to disappoint him. Shit, he's definitely mad at me.

He came back and just stared at me, He smelled like smoke. I didn't even realize I was sitting here crying. He stuck his arms out and I got up and gave him a hug, crying into his chest.

"I love you lil bro"