Mother
i'm sorry
i'm sorry and i'm sorry and i'm sorry and i'm sorry and i'm sorry and i'm sorry
i'm not all that sure what i'm sorry for or why i feel the need to apologizebut i do
i'm sorry i disappointed you
i'm sorry i made you cry
i'm sorry i voiced out my thoughts
i'm sorry i ever asked you for anything
i'm sorry i didn't put your needs and feelings first
i'm sorry for being selfish
i know
i know you have sacrificed and done a lot for me and this family
i know you don't always feel ok and happy
i know you sometimes feel as if the world is a bit much
i know you are a complex human being that has bad and good traits
i know you're trying your best
and i'm trying
i'm trying to be the perfect daughter i once was
i'm trying to not feel upset or hurt when you take my phone with no communicated reason
i'm trying not to feel upset or hurt when you finally let me be independent, if even a little bit, then turning around and doing everything yourself without talking to me
i'm trying to make you my best friend like you told me to
i'm trying to be more like what you and father wish me to be like
but
you made me like this
i never wanted this
are you sure you've done healthy parenting to me and my sisters?
YOU ARE READING
a book of lovely words
Poetrysometimes the world can feel like a bit much and the day can make you feel pressured for productivity - that is where I come. allow me to cradle you with loving words, each serving a purpose to leave you feel safe and warm for you are doing so much...
