The hotel (Bkdk Fluff)

Dorm

(Hey, just an author's note. This chapter will contain self harm. I do not mean to trigger anyone intentionally, so I have put warning signs on when it should start and end. Do not read in between the warning signs if you feel like you will be triggered by this.)

*Katsuki's Point of view*

All night, I had been thinking about something. It wasn't the battle, not even the fact I could be killed during this battle.
Instead, it was how things were going at home. I know I had just recently been able to live in the dorms.. But it doesn't help that i was hurt by what was going on before then. The last words my mom had even said to me were "I hope you fucking never come back! Just fucking DIE already!!!!!"
That didn't really hurt... But what did hurt me... Even now, still.. Was that she had attacked me a few nights ago when I was leaving to get my things. She had kicked, beat,and emotionally abused me..
But when i had came back to the dorms it was like I was never touched by her. I was moving, and breathing normally, a tear had not been shed.

All I feel like doing is crying though, and I'm so damn weak to even think about crying.
I'm just kind of hurt....

But what hurts worse is what I did to deku a few minutes ago. I am now in my dorm, sitting on my bed, my knees brought to my chest, as I'm deep in thought. I teared up, in deep regret of what I did to izuku... He was just trying to fucking help... But I had to fucking RUIN it like I always do.
I-i don't even deserve someone like him in my life. I swear, I don't.
I just wanna fucking apologize to him in the best way I can, because I feel fucking horrible!!!!!!

⚠️(Self-harm starts here.)

I didn't really know what to do, I couldn't cry because it just gave me a headache after.. But I had thought of something... There was a knife under my bed I had kept discreet. I reached underneath the bed for it and got a hold of it. I hid behind my bed and raised the sleeve of my black hoodie, slowly dragging the blade against the healing scars on my arm. I progressively made the cuts deeper. After I was satisfied, cuts surrounded my arm,bleeding.i managed to grab a bandage, wrapping the cuts up.. I still felt like I needed more, but class was soon to start. I wrap the bandages around my arm a second time, and pull my sleeve back down. ⚠️(END OF TW)

I grabbed my backpack and went to Mr. Aizawa's classroom.
Deku was sitting behind me, which now I was kind of happy about. I want to apologize to him.... But I really don't know how to. I've been bullying him for years now, and yes, I will stop. And I hope I can one day apologize to him without sounding like I am being sarcastic.
I sat down on the chair of my desk, propping my feet up on the desk before I heard a loud voice.
"Bakugo, you know it is disrespectful to our school to be doing such a thing! Get your shoes off of the des-"
It was four eyes. Before he could finish his sentence I yelled at him "Shaddup four eyes! I don't need your input on what is NOT your business, now go back to studying, lame!"
He looked offended.
Oh well, I paid no more attention to him as one pulled out my notebook to take note of what Mr. Aizawa was about to say.

"Alright class. I see everyone is rather prepared today. Well, this is the best day to be prepared, considering that tomorrow will be the day we will be taking off. I have a sheet of who will be partnered with who. Other than that, get your stuff ready, pack everything up, and whatever you do, do NOT fight with your partner. We couldn't really afford two-bed hotel rooms, so if you would not like to sleep near your partner, there should be a couch. Please take some time to process your thoughts and talk to your partner."

I was just frozen at that point. One bed hotel rooms? Who was I getting partnered up with? Tomorrow...?
Oh well, Mr. Aizawa just put a sheet of paper on all of our desks. I was scanning through the page, until Raccoon eyes interrupted with "OH MY GOSH, MOMO!!!!! MOMOOOOO!! Can you believe it???? We are gonna be partners!!!!!!BESTIES!!"
My god, won't she shut up..?
I was interrupted again.
"Yes, I can't wait, Mina! I have some nail polish for when we have free time!", Momo loudly spoke
The two started to laugh
I then scanned the page AGAIN, and then I spot my name.
The page read "Izuku Midoriya, Katsuki Bakugo"

UHM- I turned white and I felt my whole body go cold. I wasn't dreading this, but at the same time I don't think he would really like my presence, or what if he thinks I don't want his presence- no wait, ONE BED! That's gonna be... Very fucking awkward but oh well, I'll deal with it.
I turned around, facing izuku. He smiled at me softly, obviously nervous, but also a hint of excitement..

I mean, I had always knew he looked up to me and enjoyed being around me... Despite how much of a prick I could be to him. That comes to an end now, because I feel bad about how I've treated him.

I slightly smiled back at him, closing my eyes

He looked shocked, but also kind of happy.
I guess he liked that I smiled back...
I'll smile more for him then.

30 mins after, we were told to go to our dorms and get our bags prepared.