My Big Brother's Best Friend Volume 2: A Crazy Thing Called Love

Chapter 54: Space

Chris was in my arms and he was just crying and I can't even start to imagine that I know what he is going through but I can even come close to the pain that he is feeling. He is the man today because of his mother and I know he feels like he can't go on without her but I am here trying to comfort him. We were just sitting in his mother chair just hugging and I started to cry and tear up with him. I was rubbing his back while his head was laying on my chest then he got up and pushed me off him. I thought to myself what the hell is going on with Chris it's like he losing his mind.WTF did I do?

Me: Baby what did I do?

Chris: Mjay I think you should leave bey I want to be alone

Me: No I won't leave you bey, why you threatening me like I did something wrong

Chris: Mjay I just want be here all alone baby, please that's why I wanted you guys to stay away I wanted to be alone right now

Me: No you don't have to be alone baby, I love you am here for you I want to be here for you so just let me. It is not healthy to handle this s***t all by yourself and I know you mom wouldn't want you to either so stop being stubborn (I got up out the chair and I went up to him again to hug him and because I know he just hurt about the situation. When I went up to him he pushed me again and told me to leave and when he said that it really hurt me like I was doing something wrong. I didn't fight him anymore to stay to comfort him so I got in my car and I left him there by himself. How he acting towards me making me feel as if I did something wrong but I aint going to make it about me he just need some space I guess he just need time. I am going to give him a lot of space he won't hear or see me until the funeral and it hurting me to do this but I guess it's what he need. I got back in my car and drove over to my mom and I know it has been a good ass minute since I seen my parents and my room. I was thinking maybe I shouldn't even live by Terry I think I need to go home with my mother seeing how things so messed up and life so short. When I pulled back up in my yard and went inside my mom was in the kitchen cooking as usual. Lord this woman surly can cook and I know she cooks a lot when she worried or sad about something and I know it's about Chris mom.

Mom: Hey baby lord knows I don't know when last I see you in this house; Terry and Chris have you all to their self

Me: Yea mom I'm sorry but member you did tell me you can't wait tell I move out. I know I been doing for more though but think I will move back home. What happen to christener was so sudden and it made me want to come on home and cherish being with you.

Mom: Yea baby I know its sad how things happen so sudden but I guess it was just her time to go and we have to except that. Christener was my good friend and I am heartbroken but you can't question God but how is Chris doing and handling all of this.

Me: Not so good and he over at is mom now crying and stuff but he don't want no one to talk to him or be round him. I guess he just want to handle it all by himself and be alone.

Mom: Yea but that aint healthy he should be around friends to help him get over this hard time in his life but if that's what he want do leave him. He knows him better than anyone so let him deal with it his way. You hungry baby I made some sheep tongue souse and I bought you one head phone I know you told me you wanted one long time ago. I saw it in the mall and I thought about you.