BLOODY LOVE( JIKOOK)

DEAR....

Dear Jimin,

Three years have passed since that fateful event that left both of us scarred. To be honest, I was so angry at myself because of hurting you so much to your last breath. There isn't a day in this world that doesn't pass without me blaming myself. And I know you wouldn't want that for me. But in these three years time, I have learnt to let go and forgive myself. I have learnt the art of taking care of myself and controlling my emotions .

Most of all, I have learnt to forgive you, to forgive us. I know you loved me, at that time all I wanted is to hear those words. I could never blame you for not saying them. Nevertheless, I have learnt to find happiness and not to depend on others for it . I am sure you'd be very proud of me, and I know you are, wherever you are. I still remember you everyday, I still crave for you every second that passes, my desires for any man or woman faded and I live with the peace knowing that I could never need anybody the way I needed you, the way I still need you.

My love for you hasn't changed, it will never, my heart has just learnt to love you more. It isn't the toxic obsession we had because I came to know that love shouldn't hurt, love shouldn't be bloody, or egoistical. This time I love you different Jimin, and much more. My love for you is peaceful and happy. Everyday I write hoping you could write back , but I am told you are happy and you healed well. (Lol I couldn't kill Jimin guysssssss!!!!!)

I have Taehyung with me most of the times or grumpy Yoongi, but all in all am grateful for their company, since Seoul is much boring, considering I am an introvert. But I am happy Jimin, and so peaceful knowing that you're okay. Taehyung says a few things about you, but it's more than enough knowing you're alive and healthy.

This is my thirtieth letter to you on my birthday at midnight and all I would wish right now is to see you, or set a glance on you. Taehyung says you read them but I am not sure how you respond to them. I -

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOOK!", Taehyung suddenly startles me, proudly walking into my room .

"Fuck you scared me shitless", I scowl at him. A little pissed that he interrupted my writing again.

"Sorry vamp," he chuckles, not meaning a word . "Writing letters to your lover boy?", He asks.

I shrug nonchalantly, knowing very well he sees the letter as I close my diary.
He sighs audibly as he stands beside me. "Okay, get your ass up, we're going to celebrate your birthday".

I scowl at him. The idea of going to a Seoul club at midnight isn't exactly my cup of tea but I nod hesitantly. I have gotten used to humans without really revealing my vampire nature, all thanks to Taehyung and I am proud of myself. Sometimes I crave for blood but animal blood keeps me going.
He gets out of my room to leave me as I get ready.

There's some shuffling minutes later and my door is suddenly opened.
"Taehyung! I am not ready yet will you-
and when I turn around from my where I am standing all air leaves my lungs. I can't talk , I can't move as I look. As I look at him. Right on my bedroom door, hand on my door knob. I stare and I don't regret really because I can't believe he's in front of me. Everything seems to slow down, time seems to come to a stop as he also stares at me. His dark stormy eyes holding so much emotions, staring into mine. I must be dreaming oh God.

Jimin is here, in my bedroom, a few walks from me. All dressed in black, his hair long and he's blonde now, and my throat goes dry as I look at his built figure. My eyesight becomes blurry and for years I feel myself cry, not tears of pain but tears for the man Infront of me. He walks hesitantly towards me, and the moment his scent washes over me, I lose my self and jump on him, hugging him, wrapping my hands around him, around his neck, his hands around my waist. I shudder when he pulls me closer into his warm embrace, my head in the crook of his neck as I inhale, as I let his scent intoxicate me, as I let myself fully cry.