"Dear you,
I had sex with a stranger again. He picked me up down the street from my house, and we traced eachothers lips with our own underneath the moonlight. We talked about music, people and love. I told him that you left me for dead, made me feel like I'll never be good enough for you. He looked at me and said ÿou have to think about it as him not good enough for you, not the other way around, because he wasn't." And I so badly wanted to shout "but he was. He was more than enough. I just didn't know how to love him." Instead i smiled and hid my face farther into the crease in his chest. He took my shivering arm and kissed it, just like you used to. Right down the center of my arm, where my scars used to be. I almost cried, but I kept it together. I couldn't stop thinking about the way you kissed them. You tried to heal all of my scars with your kisses, and it worked, it always worked. But then, he kissed me. He kissed me the way you did and i felt dizzy. I was so dizzy, I got sick. I almost jumped out of the back of his old car and threw up all over the streets. We talked about this, about one night stands, so we could be on the same page. "I don't want to hurt you," he looked at me and said it so calmly. I couldn't speak, because how bad would it sound if i said "you'll never hurt me. I won't let you."? I just kept quiet. Maybe silence wasn't the best, but I couldn't manage anything else. The moon was bright. it was so bright it eliminated his face. He's so handsome, but he's not you. So I look at the moon instead amd tell him how beautiful it is, how I'd write about it if I could. He asked what I'd say and I told him that I would just compare it to people; but I forgot to mention that the peopel, was you. You're the moon, the stars, the Galaxy and beyond. But I won't tell him that. I let him stroke my face some more and listened to him tell me I'm beautiful. I heard him but I didn't listen. I laid on his chest and felt yours. I heard his heartbeat and it sounded like yours. I felt his lips and tasted yours... I should probably stop this."
