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Section 23

Apartment No.16. Usually I would be relieved to go to my apartment, but right now I feel like I'm going to be sick.

I'm moving in with Eric, it was his idea and I'm glad for it. I wouldn't be able to stay in this apartment knowing that Tash isn't going to be around, I just wouldn't be able to cope with the thought of what happened. So Eric has brought a large bag so we can put my stuff in, before the movers arrive to take Tash's stuff.

My hand is tightly around Eric's, and when I say tight I mean tight, but thankfully Eric doesn't seem to mind. My other hand is around the apartment handle, my breaths are shaky I'm not sure if I can do this. Eric places his hand on the small of back, I look up to his face, he smiles reassuringly. I close my eyes, taking a deep breath before I open the door.

What I see surprises me. The apartment living space is clean, spotless, much better then it was when she was 'stable'. I walk a little more into my apartment, Eric is close behind me his hand still on the small of my back. I bite the inside of my cheek, chewing on the flesh. "Shall we go in your room? And stop chewing your cheek." I giggle a little at his comment at stop chewing but that small bit of happiness is now gone. I nod my head and slowly walk towards my bedroom door.

I open the door quickly and my room is how I left it, tidy but the odd piece of clothing lying around. I go over to my oak draws which are next to my bed, a small folded piece of paper is placed on the middle of the draw. I stare at it, scared to find out what it is but I have clear idea that it's from Tash.

I turn and look at Eric who has his eyes fixed on me, I walk over to my desk and quickly pick up the paper and shove it in my pocket. I can't look at it yet. It might not even be anything important but I doubt it.
A rattling sound takes me out of my thoughts, I turn to see Eric shaking out the large black bag. "Shall we get started baby?" Weakly I smile at the handsome man who wears a very flattering shirt as it shows off all his arm muscles.

I'm so glad I have him, I don't know how I would cope if I didn't.

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My whole room is cleared of all my belongings and have been took to Eric's apartment. Once I knew I had everything of mine, we let the clearing people in who do what they want with the furniture and Tash's left over stuff. I couldn't go through her stuff, I couldn't bring myself to it and I also didn't have a clue what I would do with it as well.

Now my head is on Eric's lap, while he gently plays with my hair, I've noticed he does this a lot. He leans down and kisses my temple before playing with my hair once again, I have a black blanket over me which keeps my body heat around me.

"What time is it?" I ask breaking the peaceful silence.

"It's 17:35, are you coming to Tash's celebration?" I shake my head a little,

"I'm not celebrating my friends death Eric, are you going?" I hear him huff out.

"Yeah I have too, I would stay with you but as a Leader I've got to be there. Sorry baby."

"It's okay, I understand." I'm not lying, I do. He's a Leader and he has to do what he has to do but I would want him to be with me but that's not going to happen. "What time does it start?" I ask,

"19:00" I close my eyes.

"Well I'm going to sleep." I state, getting comfortable on Eric's lap.

Eric continues to play with my hair while I try to go to sleep and I'm glad. It relaxes me making me steadily fall asleep quicker.

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Stretching, I open my eyes and I'm immediately confused. I'm in bed the white covers on top of my body, keeping me warm. I turn expecting to see Eric but he isn't next to me, I quickly look at my wrist and it's 19:32 he'll be at Tash's ceremony. I frown at the thought of her ceremony, it just makes me feel so annoyed, celebrating her death! Why the hell would you celebrate such a thing! She wasn't brave, she was depressed! And that was the only way out in her eyes.