Crying on My Own

#2

is this what it feels like

to be absolutely alone

in a room full of people?

that pang of jealousy

that invades my veins

when i see happy people

casually strolling down the street

that pang of desire

to have what they have

to be able to hold someone's hand as i walk

to feel like i belong

the feeling of no self-worth

is to need what they have

but to know that i don't

and will never

deserve it.

don't deserve to feel like i belong

don't deserve to be happy

don't deserve what they have

what i deserve

is to feel alone

in a room full of people

because i will never deserve

anything more.