Saturday, February 25, 2023
Jayden's diary:
Hi, my name is Jayden Bartels currently I am 18 years old and I've been in love with my best friend for a long time slowly I'm starting to get over it but at the same time I'll never be over it.
Let's start from the beginning I remember when I met her at a bowling alley when I was with my friends that was my first time ever meeting her, of course I've heard about her she's Annie LeBlanc, well Jules LeBlanc now but back then she did go by Annie and remember that I was always a fan of her I loved her sister and I loved her channel I loved everything about her. In her videos she always seemed so funny, nice, caring, and gentle and in reality she is the same as she is on screen, this might definitely sound weird but when I started to get to know her in the really early stages of our friendship, I fell in love with her and yeah, I know you might be saying "you guys were so young", "How did you fall in love with her", "how do you even know you liked girls back then" but that's not really what I thought about in the moment it just when I looked at her and when I was near her, I was so happy, we were each other's people. We got along really well and our friendship grew, and everyone knew us as Jayden and Annie It was amazing I mean it obviously hurt to see that she would never love me back but I'll still forever love her.
The photos that got leaked I want to talk about those. I honestly I'm very mad that they got leaked Jules wasn't ready to come out yet when we first kissed we were both really drunk but I still remember it like it was yesterday. When we kissed I lit up I was so happy until I remembered that we were drunk and she was probably not gonna remember this. We were at party it was one of my friends party and we went there because he invited me and he told me to bring Jules so I said sure. When she kissed me there was a lot of emotions going on inside but what I felt most was guilt because I knew if someone saw this she would be devastated. We did eventually talk about the kiss and she just told me she was very drunk and she think's she might be bi and I told her that that's all right It didn't mean anything to me we're friends and that's what will always be but in reality all I've wanted was to date her. For a long time secretly I think the reason my relationships never work out is because I'm in love with Jules which might sound really toxic and that I never loved any of the people I've dated but I did just not as much as I loved Jules I know that sounds wrong but when you've been friends with someone for over five years you guys just have a special bond that nobody else has with you you guys feel connected so if you never had a friendship that lasted four years or more. You'll never understand that type of bond or if you've never been in love with your best friend you'll never understand that either because that's a different type of pain when you know you can't have them and you just accept it because you refuse to tell them because you refuse to let a friendship that's been going on for so long die out.
Ahhhhhh I really hoped u liked this well if anyone even reads it💀💀
I think I did okay ✅
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