-Jayden
I kissed her. I have no idea what got into me. I am not that type of person but I was shocked when she kissed back we were kissing for a couple of seconds until we both pulled away. I was an absolute shocked and so was she. Of course this wasn't the first time we've kissed but something about this time was just different. I immediately apologized because I was in the wrong for that I should've not kissed her.
"Oh my God I am so sorry. I do not know what got into me" I say
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Why is she not responding to me? Is she mad at me? What the hell is going on?
"Jules? It's okay I get it let's go I'll drop you off at home" I say
I started to walk away until I felt someone grab me. It was Jules She pulled me in for a hug and we just stood there for a couple of minutes.
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-Jules
Jayden kissed me and without hesitation I kissed back after a few seconds we finally stop kissing but I was just in pure shock because I know we kissed before and those were good but this kiss was something else it's like a spark inside me went off and Jayden kept talking to me but all I could think about was the kiss I finally got back into the real world and I saw her walking away I quickly grabbed her arm and pulled her into a hug and we just stood there. I didn't know what to say so I didn't say anything because I knew if I did it would be something stupid.
After a few minutes, I finally built up the courage to say something.
While still hugging Jayden, I said to her "Jay I love you so much but we need to talk about this because this isn't just an I love you as a friend. This is an I love you I want to be with you forever."
Jayden pulled away from the hug and looked me straight in the eye and said " Holy shit thank God you said something I was starting to get so worried."
" Wait wait hold up did you say you love me? Jules you don't know how long I've been waiting for those words and of course we can talk. Tell me whatever you want to tell me I'll listen all right" she said .
"All right let's talk sit down" I say.
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-Jayden
Jules finally said something and the wait was definitely worth it because she said the one thing I've been wanting to here forever " this isn't just an I love you as a friend. This is an I love you I want to be with you forever." when I'm telling you when she said those words, I almost fainted, I really almost did hearing her say those words made me so happy it's like I was floating on a cloud. Jules asked me if we could talk and of course I agreed because I would love to hear what she has to say.
So we sat down and now we're talking Jules is just explaining how she's been questioning for a long time and I am the reason that she's been questioning but now she's sure that she's bi and she also said that she's scared because she doesn't know how we're gonna make this relationship work because she said if we do start dating what if something went wrong and we break up, she doesn't want to lose me as a friend and Jules said that even though she loves me more than a friend, I'll forever be her best friend and I am irreplaceable, which is completely understandable and I understand that because I would never wanna lose Jules, she's my favourite human on this planet I would die for her, I would live for her and I would kill for her. she's my muse in life The reason I can continue to keep going without even having to think about it, without her life would really be meaningless and I told her all this because I couldn't think of a better way of showing/telling her that our relationship can and will work out because our love for each other is stronger than anything in this world nothing will ever be able to break us apart and if someone tried, they better be ready for me to have their head on a platter.
We just kept on talking and talking and it was the realist conversation I've ever had with anyone we kept on explaining how we felt for each other and it was beautiful. I am 100% sure in that moment we both realized how much we've truly grown to love each other over the years and how beautiful not just our friendship but our whole relationship is. We finally stopped talking about this and I finally grew the balls to ask her what we are and if we're dating.
"Jules i'm pretty sure we both have a mutual understanding of what we are by now but I'm still gonna ask are we dating?"
"Well Jayden Bartels will you be my girlfriend"
Jules said.
"Yes!! Of course, I'll be your girlfriend took you long enough to ask" I said jokingly.
" don't make me take it back Bartels" she said, with a very sarcastic tone.
"Haha yeah yeah come on let's go home Julianna" I say
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-Jules
I told Jayden that I love her and not just as a friend but as someone I wanna be with forever And we need to talk about our relationship. So Me and Jayden sat down and we had a conversation about how I've been questioning myself for a while and also our feelings for each other and our concerns. My biggest concern was what if something went wrong and we broke up the reason that was a big concern of mine was because I can't lose Jayden She has been my best friend for such a long time and she has been there for me through so much. I usually never talk about my older brother but in this case I am because it really explains how I feel about Jayde and in general. After Caleb died Everything was kind of a blur. I still think of him constantly and I had a very hard time coping with it but I had to put on an act for Hayley because if I was sad
she would be even sadder so I had to act like I was all right and step up as a big sister but inside I was dying. I have just lost my older brother my favourite person in the world but Life started to become better Once I met Jayden and this might sound strange but I truly believe that Caleb sent her to me because we met in such a strange way at a bowling alley She was friends with one of my friends. It was just a strange way of meeting someone but I Cold heartedly believe that Caleb sent her to me because after I met Jayden things started to light up in the world it even started sparking again. She gave life A new meaning. So I told Jayden that losing her it's not an option and that if we do start dating and if anything goes wrong, I refuse to let our friendship fade away. Then Jayden straight up, told me that it's understandable and she understands because she would never ever want to lose me because I'm her favourite person ever but then Jayden said some thing that actually melted my heart " I would die for you, I would live for you and I would kill for you, Jules you are my muse in life you are the thing that keeps me going without you life wouldn't mean a thing."
We kept on talking and it was truly an amazing conversation. It was just us talking about how we realized how beautiful this friendship is. And that the love we have for each other is extremely beautiful and how much our love for each other has grown over the years from being an amazing friendship to a wonderful relationship. We finally dial down the talking then out of nowhere Jayden just says.
"Jules i'm pretty sure we both have a mutual understanding of what we are by now but I'm still gonna ask are we dating?"
This idiot of course we are but I'm still gonna ask her if she wants to be my girlfriend.
"Jayden Bartels, will you be my girlfriend" I say
Jayden responds with "Yes!! Of course, I'll be your girlfriend took you long enough to ask"
I just say " don't make me take it back Bartels" with a sarcastic tone.
" yeah yeah come on let's go home" Jay says.
So we walk back to the restaurant where the car is and we drive to Jayden's place we decide to have a sleepover because it is really late. We shower and we get changed and we cuddle up in bed and watch the last of us on her laptop. I would definitely say that this has been one of the best days of my life, 100% the best day.
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Hope you enjoyed. I was really contemplating on writing the Caleb part or not but I really think it added to the story.
Btw i'm sorry that the new parts always come out at night but that's really the only time I have the privacy to write because in the daytime it would be awkward because my whole family could hear me.
