Sunday, February 26, 2023
Jules diary:
Hey, my names is Julianna Leblanc but I prefer Jules I am 18 years old and for the past two years I've been questioning my sexuality. I honestly really don't know if I like girls or not because I know I like guys but do I like girls?
I'm a start off where it all started about me questioning myself because I honestly just really need to say this out loud because the confusion is killing my brain. Anyways, when I first started questioning myself, it was back when I was at a party with Jayden and I kissed her I was really drunk though and I don't know why I kissed her because normally when I do get drunk I do some stupid things but I've never done some thing as stupid as kiss someone and when I kissed her I honestly really liked it I know that's weird to say because I was drunk and everything but I really did like it and that's when I started getting confused about my sexuality. I've never really felt any attraction to girls but Jayden is different. It's like when I'm with her I'm happier than I usually am and when I'm with her she brings out the best side of me, being with her just makes me happy but at the same time when I'm with her I'm so confused because I don't know whether I wanna be with her or if I just want her as a friend it's really confusing because I love the friendship that me and Jayden have built. We've been friends for four years and I would never throw that friendship away but what's also making me question everything is A few years back I was in a relationship with my ex boyfriend Asher and me and him both mutually agreed that we don't wanna date anymore and that was because we just felt like the love was fading but with Jayden our love never fades it's always there even when we get into fights and don't talk for a while, We forgive each other and get back right to where we left off. I love that girl so much.
I remember when the photos of me and Jayden got leaked I honestly was kind of upset because I was like really I know a lot of people thought me and her were dating and stuff but like that wasn't necessary, I was not ready to come out yet and honestly I'm still kind of questioning. I was not ready to tell the world anything to be honest. It's honestly no one's fucking business but it's whatever it got leaked nothing much I can do about it now. What I hate most about it is that Jayden thought it was all her fault and she kept on apologizing and saying that she's sorry but in reality it was none of her fault at all she didn't do anything and she felt so bad because she thought she outed me even though it wasn't even her, It was some random ass person that decided to be a bitch that day and it broke my heart to see her so sad about something like this. The funniest part was when Hayley asked me what all this was about but it was funny because she was laughing the whole time she was giggling and wheezing. It was hilarious and I just straight up told her everything because that's my little sister I love her to death and when I told her all about it she just sat there and listened it was honestly a very good conversation and she said no matter what I choose she'll always be by my side but she did say "whatever you choose please don't ruin your relationship with Jayden I really love her too." That stuck with me because she's right, no matter what I choose to do I can't ruin my perfectly good relationship with her because I'm not losing my best friend my soulmate.
Part 2 done ✅
Hopefully for whoever read this they enjoyed
I liked this part I found it pretty good 😌
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