Blackmail

Blame

Carter's pov:
5 hours. He was in surgery for 5 hours. They said he had a lot of glass from the windshield in his right arm and that his spine was completely messed up.
I was sitting in my hospital room with Daniel, ranting about how he didn't tell me about Beau when one of the medics, Tammy I think her name was, came into the room and told us. We sat in the waiting room for 2 hours and then went to go see Sam. He was still unconscious. We stayed there for an hour until Jai and Luke came. They both looked like a wreck, but I don't blame them. I immediately shot out of my seat, no matter how much it hurt, and brought them both into a bear hug. We all sat down and Daniel told them about James. Luke started crying. Jai just sat there shaking his head. And then I told them it was my fault. Everyone looked really shocked at my words but they were completely true. I told him that he was the reason that Beau was dead and then we both ran off. He must have thrown himself into traffic because he believed me and blamed himself.
Tammy came in and told us that the doctor wants to talk to us. We all got up and followed her to another room. James must be in there. I headed towards the door but the doctor lightly grabbed my arm. "Let me prepare you for what you're about to see before you go in there." the doctor says looking right into my eyes. "Okay..." I said walking back towards the others. I wonder why Tammy's still here.
"James was in a bad crash. The windshield shattered and a lot of glass was stuck in his arm. We removed all the glass but his arm looks rather shredded. We stitched it up. His face had a few cuts that we stitched up and there is lots of bruising. The car first struck him in his hip slash spinal area. This affected his spine so much that he is now paralyzed." "He's... he's paralyzed?" I stuttered out. "Yes ma'am. Permanently." the doctor replied, not looking at me. "Can we go see him?" Jai asked. "Yes of course." he answered while opening the door. Everyone started to walk in but my feet seemed to be glued to the floor. "Carter?" Daniel asked. "I can't go see him Daniel. Everyone is going to be so sad and he'll be sad and it's all my fault. I'm the reason the he's paralyzed for life. This is going to change everything. He can't preform anymore. And you can't preform anyway without Beau. But now he can't do what he loves because of me. What about when he wants to get married and have kids? He can't handle kids in a wheelchair. And he's going to hate me because I'm the reason the he blamed himself and the reason why he stepped out into traffic. I'm the person who ruined his life Daniel!!!" I yell while crying. Daniel hugs me tightly and places his chin on top of my head. "That's bullshit Carter and you know it. People work and have family's everyday while being paralyzed. And James is a fighter. He'll make it passed this. And Carter he would never blame you. He loves you Carter, we all do. And we all knew we were taking a risk stepping into that building but we didn't hesitate because we were going in there to get our Carter back." At his final words I completely fall apart. I fall to the ground crying and Daniel just holds me. Jai and Luke come out of the room and hug us as well. We all just sit on the ground, crying and hugging. I finally stop crying but we stay in the embrace. I feel like I'm at home, but not completely there because I know that two pairs of arms are missing from this hug. And I really wish they were there.