and, to be honest

00:09

"what?"

"i'm telling you.. your dorm wifi sucks." tinn rolled his eyes. calling with tiw might just be one of the worst ideas he's had today.

"you.. sex... gun?" tiw lags every word.

"yeah, i think that's what i just told you."

"tinn, you dumb fuck!" this time tiw says it loud and clear, the bad connection magically disappearing.

tinn gets on his back, his forearm over his eyes and sighs. "what should i do? i avoided him yesterday."

"be honest with me," tinn hated hearing those words from tiw. "do you still like gun?"

tinn woke up at around 04:50 am, opening his eyes to see his lower body uncovered. he blinked a few times before glancing to the side to see gun sleeping beside him.

with a panic, he hurriedly got out of the bed and groaned as he was bending down to pick up his clothes. his thighs were sore from how hard gun was riding him that night. tinn wore his clothes and sat down on the bed to recall everything that happened last night.

god, this can't be true — tinn got up again and walked over to the door. he put his hand on the handle, but looked back at the man on the bed. "what is wrong with me?" he quietly asks himself before deciding to leave, really mad at himself for giving in so easily.

for some reason tinn had to think for a while before answering, "i hate him."

tiw obviously doesn't believe it. there's definitely more to it, but he doesn't want to force the boy to say something he's not ready to tell. so tiw changes the subject instead. "what are you going to wear for non uniform day on friday?"

tinn removes his arm off his face to look at the closet. before he could answer, tiw cut him off. "i've decided i'm going to dress up as a soup stall man and then you and por are gonna be my fancy waiters, so find a suit right now."

what? just what..

"why only me and por?"

"i'm hitting on por, remember? and he told me he wanted to do something funny on the non uniform day." tinn fake gagged, but agreed to do it anyway. not like he has any other choice, but he still agreed to do it because tiw has helped him with gun in highschool so many times.

"why won't you guys get together already?" he asks, putting tiw on speaker and getting up from the bed to check for a suit.

although he couldn't see the boy, judging from his voice, tiw is surely smiling. "we want to focus on our studies first then start dating after graduation." hearing that made tinn remember that time he told gun he would wait for him to get a job after they graduate.

the boy nods, forgetting tiw can't see him. "okay, whatever. i have an old suit, i think it still fits."

"it better do, i'm going to give mine to por."

"disgusting" and tiw laughs before hanging up.

tinn throws the suit on the bed, as he gets on his back and lays there like a starfish. suddenly, all he could think about was gun. but why? tinn hates gun so much, he wants nothing to do with the boy.

gun is tinn's first love, yeah, but he hated how gun blocked him everywhere and he hated how much time he wasted on gun just to get blocked at the end. people might think it's not a big deal, but tinn always thought they were doing fine. because of gun's lack of communication, they end up here. he didn't even say it to his face, just sent a breakup text and didn't bother to wait for a reply to hit the block button.