Guess what I broke my fucking leg, not broke just pulled my ligament, and guess how I pulled my ligament doing something I wanted to do after so long.
I had mentioned in my previous chapter that there was something that I wanted to do this year and if I had the guts I would do it and I did it even tho I pulled my leg while doing it, it was 100 percent worth it.
I didn't even know how I got the courage I guess I came to my last stage of grief "acceptance" I just thought fuck it.
The next day I was reading a book called unravel me by taraeh mafi and this quote came up
"Just a moment.
Just 1 second, just 1 more minute, just give me another hour or maybe the weekend to think it over it’s not so much it’s not so hard it’s all we ever ask for it’s a simple request.
But the moments the seconds the minutes the hours the days and years become one big mistake, one extraordinary opportunity slipped right through our fingers because we couldn’t decide, we couldn’t understand, we needed more time, we didn’t know what to do.
We don’t even know what we’ve done.
We have no idea how we even got here when all we ever wanted was to wake up in the morning and go to sleep at night and maybe stop for ice cream on the way home and that one decision, that one choice, that one accidental opportunity unraveled everything we’ve ever known and ever believed in and what do we do?
What do we do from here? "
This quote was like a god sent message after reading this I thought should I stop trying to look good for people who probably don't even pay attention to me and thought, after school, all these people will go to their paths and ill become strangers to them so should I keep myself in a cage just cause I think that they'll judge me and no I didn't instantly get motivated after this but It did help me a lot I tried involving myself in activities that I was too afraid to try and guess what I even fell like 4 or 5 times
But I didn't get as embarrassed as before I just felt like I was accomplishing something and that made me feel great.
So I'm writing this chapter to remind myself ur getting there, slowly but ur getting there and when u do reach the top ull be the proudest uve ever been for now just hang in there.
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HumorA point of view of an extrovert Not a romance novel Not a thriller novel Not a fanfiction Not a biography Not a autobiography Not a motivational story Just sharing my point of views and trying to convince myself along the way to win a war against m...
