Sparkling amber hair tumbles down my back
The ends gradually fading to black.
Eyes, one chocolate, one caramel
Slowly watch the carousel
As it goes round and round,
The children's laughter resounds.
I stare at the joyful children
Wishing I could go back to when
I was carefree
Running into the sea
The ocean spray coating my face
My brothers and I treating life like a race
Of "Who could grow up faster?"
Which quickly became a disaster
As we all fell into a deep dark well
That slowly began to tell
That we weren't enough or worth it so,
Our separate paths we decided to go.
My plan went south rather quickly
And I began to feel sickly
As I focused on the mirror
It all became much clearer
I was not the girl I wanted
And that's when I was taunted
By life and all its cruelties
And all I wanted was to take the keys
To lock myself away in a tower
Until I regained my power
To look at myself and say
"You are beautiful in every way".
From that moment forward
My personality ordered
That the scale weigh on my mind.
Not long after, I began to find
Depression creeping in, telling me "It's time to sin"
I found myself in a downward spin.
Life swallowed me whole
And I began to scroll
Through hundreds of songs
None about thongs
As a way to disconnect
And possibly intersect
The horrible thoughts that dwell
In my mind and made me unwell.
It worked and I felt better
So I wrote myself a letter
Asking me to remember
That I must dismember
Any negative feelings
And bad social dealings.
They must be squashed
Before my child is brain-washed
By a ruthless society
And behave with utmost propriety.
She will be unique
And she will always speak
For what she believes is right
Even if it fades from others' light.
She will never have to look at me
With all her little might and see
A broken piece of stronghold wall
That once was a support for all.
She will never have to ask, with eyes all wet,
Mama, Am I Pretty Yet?
As I once did years before.
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RandomA collection of poems based off a life not worth living. "Life Poems" highlights the life of a lonely girl who has been broken more times than she can count.