Apathetic Psycometric (book 1) #wattys2016

Chapter 7

Jordan decided to stay after and play basketball with Flynn. I stuck my headphones in and turned on shatter me by Lzzy Hale and Lindsey Sterling. I take out one ear piece and start singing while I walk.

Somebody shine a light

I'm frozen by the fear in me

Somebody make me feel alive

And shatter me

So cut me from the line

Dizzy, spinning endlessly

Somebody make me feel alive

And shatter me!

I smile while I sing because... Jordan has made me feel more alive than I thought I ever could. He has been everything I've ever hoped for but never thought I deserved. He is helping me be... Me. I send him a text because now I know what to do.

Wanna go with me somewhere tomorrow? Xoxo -L

Sounds fun! Xoxo -J

I then text my mom.

Hey mom, you said if I ever decided on what I wanted to get I'd need to run it by you to get the money. I think I know now!

We exchange a few more texts when I explain to her what it is I want and she agrees to give me the money but she also made me promise she could come with. So the next day we went to the tattoo parlor where I proceeded to get a double infinity on my wrist and along my arms the words "love me for who I am because I am enough the way I am". And I couldn't have been happier for a first tattoo.

A few days later I'm walking to school listening to my favorite nightstep song alone and humming the song.

If I could learn to think things through

If I could change my field of view

Maybe I'd end up with you

I can't recall the things I've said

So I'm blaming you instead

Cause that's the last thing I can do

I'm thinking the words in my head when a thought comes into my head. Interesting song. I know I've never listened to something like that though so how do I know the words...

The voice behind the thought reminds me of.... Jordan? I think this as I walk up behind him and I see him turn around with this... Incredulous look on his face. I smile at him.

Is it you I'm hearing? He thinks and I grin bigger nodding.

 Yeah. Wow this is so cool. Way cooler than my psychometry! He grins and laughs out loud.

"We have got to test the range on this later!" he laughs. Flynn walks up to us and says hi. We head into school and I think at Jordan maybe this is how you knew to help me. I smile. He nods and hugs me close.

Later that night we decided to try out the range. He lives a few miles away. I sit in bed and close my eyes to concentrate. Jordan? Can you hear me?

Loud and clear sweetie! I smile.

This is so cool Jordan. Do you think we could do it with anyone else or is it just us?

Hmmm why don't we try Flynn tomorrow?

I smile again and nod even though he can't see me. Sounds like a plan. So... We spend an hour talking mentally and then he asks me to sing him to sleep which is sweet and all but... How did he know about the singing? I hear you mentally sing remember? It's how we found out. Oh yeah. I forgot about that. I laughed softly and agreed to sing to him. He asked for a digital dagger song and I oblige.

Musing through memories,

Losing my grip in the grey.

Numbing the senses,

I feel you slipping away.

Fighting to hold on,

Clinging to just one more day

Love turns to ashes,

With all that I wish could say..

I'd die to be where you are.

I tried to be where you are.

Every night, I dream you still here.

The ghost by my side, so perfect so clear.

When I awake, you disappear,

Back to the shadows

With all I hold dear..

With all I hold dear..

I dream you're still here..

Hidden companion

Phantom be still in my heart

Make me a promise that

Time won't erase us

That we were not lost from the start.

I'd die to be where you are

I tried to be where you are

I dream you're still here,

Ever slightly out of reach.

I dream you're still here,

But it breaks so easily.

I try to protect you,

I can't let you fade.

I feel you slipping..

I feel you slipping away..

i fall asleep and wake up to a text.

It's a beautiful song Laurie-girl. Goodnight. Xoxo -J