That Low Class Guy
He's eleven years older than me.
He started courting me at the age of seventeen.
He never stop chasing me.
Even if I push him away.
I easily get irritated when he's around.
I don't like him.
I. Will. Never like him.
Not him. Not to that low class guy.
Months, and years had passed... He still the same. Whatever i do in my life, he's still chasing me. I'm tired of running away from him. I know he's just like those any other guys. I know what he wants from me. I know he wants my body. That's why I never give him a chance to prove himself to me.
How do I know? Well, he's a notorious playboy. He's courting me while still entertaining other girls. Kapit bahay lang namin sya kaya alam ko. And I don't fucking understand why my parents never feel disgusted of him. They let him court me.
"Why don't you give him a chance? Give him a chance to prove himself to you." My friend suggested. Umirap ako.
"What? Malay mo hinihintay ka lang nya to fully changed himself. Baka kasi feeling nya wala naman syang pag asa kaya nya yun ginagawa?" She said, pertaining to his cheating issues.
"No. Ang mga lalaking makati ay hindi na magbabago. Years had passed and he became worst! Naging lasinggero pa!" I blurted out. Everytime that my friends are started talking about him I get irritated.
"Franzelle.. Ano bang kailangan kong gawin para mahalin mo ako?" He asked. Kadarating ko lang sa bahay at sya agad ang sumalubong saakin. Lasing pa.
Umirap ako sa ere tsaka nilagpasan sya.
"Please, Franzelle... Give me a chance. Pinapangako kong mamahalin kita buong buhay ko! Magbabago ako..." He said. He grabbed my left arm to make me stop walking.
"Ano?! Hindi ka ba napapagod? God, Hanji! Just... Stay away from me... I don't like seeing you around." I said and started walking away from him again. Before I could reach the door knob he said something...
Something that made me feel guilt.
"Sabihin mo kung anong gusto mong gawin ko. Gagawin ko naman, eh. Wag mo lang akong layuan..." He said. Almost a whisper.
"Look at yourself, Hanji! You're 11 years older than me! Hindi ka ba kinikilabutan? How will I believe your fucking words when everytime I see you, you are with your fucking women! Hindi ikaw ang lalaking gusto ko para sa sarili ko!"
"Ano kung ganoon? Anong klaseng lalaki ang gusto mo? O dapat ko bang itanong kung sino?" He said. I walk backwards when he started walking to where I am standing.
"Mayaman, may maipagmamalaki sa buhay, hindi babaero at responsable! Definitely not you." I feel the guilt that starting to run all over my body when I saw the small tear dropped from his eyes after I said all those words to him.
"Hindi ako mayaman. Wala akong maipagmamalaki sa buhay. Kaya kitang buhayin kahit magkanda kuba ako kakatrabo. Hindi naman ako babaero, mali lang ang iniisip mo at responsable rin naman ako... Hindi mo lang alam dahil wala ka namang pakealam." He said. I almost cry because of the last word he said.
He's chasing me for almost 2 years.
"Why not give him a chance?"
"Why not give him a chance?"
"Why not give him a chance?"
