Within the music

The only exception

The fresh wind blew the strands of my hair onto my face. I smiled while looking at him. 'Do you know how lovely you are in my eyes?' I giggled unconciously. I exhale a large amount of air before talking.

"I want to tell a story, love." I smiled.

"Go on, baby." He said, tucking my hair behind my ears before caressing it.

"I'm going to tell you the whole story, okay?" He just nodded and kissed my forehead. While I was gaining the strength to say this to him, he was playing my fingers, which brought comfort to me.

"When I was eight... I saw my parents fight every day. From morning to midnight... The shouts were the awakening alarm for me to cry and comfort myself that maybe one day everything will be alright. But I did not expect that they would divorce. I was so afraid of loving someone or being transparent with them because my mom always tells my dad how she feels, which led them into a fight because my mom just cares about how she feels when the reality is she just wants to be loved and treated nicely... The scene is so vivid in my mind—the way my mom begged and my dad cursed at the wind every time they fought. As an only child, I was there... I am always there, watching them break every glass in the kitchen and those expensive jars in the corridor... I was so afraid to love because the idea of love that I saw cut deeply in my heart. They were my first true love—the first couple that made me see how scary love is. How hard it is to be love and to give love... Being in love scares me; having feelings for someone will be the death of me..."

I  looked at him when he swipe the tears away from my cheeks. I looked at the man that made me believe that love can be this wonderful...

"But I had you... You came into my life and made me see what real love looks and feels like. You just walk into my life and lift me up. You love me like you love your mom, little sister, and yourself. Loving you feels like a daydream that I don't want to snap out of; you made me open my eyes to a different form of love. You just did not love me every day; you chose me every single day, and I am happy that someone finally became my only exception... It's you, my love.."

The pain in his eyes was visible, which made me so confused.

"Baby, it's been years... Please let go of yourself." He held my hands... I broke down.

"N-No, please. Love, would you please come back to me? Please? I don't want to lose you... I can't, please." I cried and cried. I felt how surreal his presence was.

"Free yourself from me... It's hard to go on the other step seeing you miserable; please do this for us, baby... You can do this, okay? All of us will be cheering for you, and our family and friends will be there for you, baby, hmm? I love you so much, and I know you do too, but please help yourself... This is hard for me too, but baby, please... Be happy even without me."

His brown eyes were full of pain, and I know mine were too. We hugged each other and stayed like that for a couple of minutes before he let go. My eyes were sore from crying, so he stood up and walked towards the beach; he was in the middle of the sun from my view. I cried again.

"I know you can do it. The time has already ended; please move on from the pain and help yourself to be the best version of yourself again, okay?" He smiled warmly before disappearing with the sun's light.

I know that we will see each other again, and our love will remain unconditional even though the other has already crossed the garden of life. I stayed on the shore for hours before going back to my house. But before opening the gate, I remembered something.

"I love you from yesterday, today, and tomorrow to infinity."

Calliope | 03/01/23