As It Was (h.s)

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Matilda, you talk of the pain like it's all alright
But I know that you feel like a piece of you's dead inside.
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Harry's POV
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"I feel like we didn't lose any time." Aria said as she snuggled against me in my bed.

"I know." I tell her, squeezing her tighter. "We should get married."

"What? Harry I'm-"

"Not right now, obviously." I tell her. "I just mean eventually. After everything's gotten settled and figured out. I don't want to leave you again, Aria. I want to be yours forever."

"I don't know if I ever want to get married again, I don't trust my judgement." She says it like it's a joke, but I know she believes it. "And even if I did, I still don't fully believe this wont backfire on me, Harry."

I know when she says this she means us. I hate myself for it.

"Aria," I start. "I know I've made shitty mistakes in the past. I know I've fucked up more times than I can fucking count, but now that I know what my life is like without you, I can promise you I will never ever fuck this up again."

She smirks. "Maybe you should prove it." She sits up and looks down at me. "Show me how much you want me, Harry Styles."

I feel a smile form onto my lips and I sit up with her, my hands meeting her hips and pulling her down, so I'm able to crawl on top of her. My lips meet her's and I kiss her with everything I have in me. She immediately pulls my t-shirt off of her body and tosses it to the floor.

I've been putting off saying it, because we haven't been talking for long, but I know, I fucking know, I'm still in love with this woman. I never stopped loving her. Even when I was with Olivia, I loved her. Even when I knew she wasn't coming back to me I loved her. Even though she loved somebody else, I loved her.

She's taken my underwear off and I've discarded her panties when we hear a loud banging on my front door.

"Were you expected someone?" she asks, between kisses. I shake my head.

"They can wait til tomorrow." I say, her hands still roaming everywhere

But the banging continues, and it doesn't stop. And then the screaming comes. I can't audibly hear the words that are being said from upstairs, just that it sounds urgent.

I pull away from her. "I'm going to go see, it sounds like it might be Mitch." I say, kissing her forehead. "Get dressed incase they come inside."

She nods and I pull off of her, grabbing my underwear from the floor and pulling them up my legs, as well as sweatpants I'd dropped on the floor earlier. "I'll be right back." I tell her, then walk out of the room and head down the stairs.

The banging on the door continues, loud thuds one after the other. "Open the door!" The man yells. "I know you're in there!"

I unlock and pull open the door and almost gasp in surprise. "Cole?!" I say.

How the fuck did he find out she was here?

"Oh you fucking cunt." he says, when his eyes are laid on me. "Where's my wife? I know she's here."

"Cole, relax. She's fine." I start to say. "She's in bed, you can see her tomorrow if-"

"No, I'm gonna see her now." he pushes past me and into my house.

"Well come the fuck inside I guess." I mumble to myself. I try to hide the inner panic that's running through me. I don't know what the fuck is gonna happen when he finds out I've been sleeping with his wife. I don't know if he knows already, if he's acting like he doesn't, or anything really. I don't know anything.