POSHEEDA

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     Shehnaaz breath got hitched as she closed her eyes shut tightly seeing headlights of car getting near them and couldn't help but recite last prayers in her heart. Sidharth instantly turn steering wheel in left side where it was empty land to avoid getting hit by car and pushed breaks really hard making car stoped with jolt. He kept arm ahead her to protect her from getting hit on dash board, in process he did got internal injuries which made him groan in pain

Here he wasn't fazed by they almost got into an accident as much he was by her turning out to be someone he has been looking for and someone whom he told her about and introduced as his lover. He was regretting everything

Shehnaaz's mind went completely blank at this point and hot tears start filling in her eyes, she's getting impression that he's doing it on purpose for her to leave him voluntarily, this all week's situation has messed up her mind this much that now this was making her think like this. She lift her face to look at him, who was sitting with his hand against head and elbow against window. There was pain worried look over his face

"Are you this much desperate for me to leave?" Her voice was shaky as she held dashboard of car to sit properly with glassy eyes not leaving his face. For her he did it intentionally since he took wrong side of road

She was hurt deeply, the way she has been living with him these days only she knows how she's surviving everyday, where she has no one to share her feelings with. She thinks he's reason for her all problems

"What are you saying?" He was genuinely confused by her words and tried to maintain normal face

"Enough is enough Sidharth!" She burst into tears "Hum yeh aur nahi kar sakte humse nahi hoga please hume ghar lekr jaye" She kept on crying non stop. Her all limits were crossed now she can't bear anymore

For first time Sidharth felt his heart arching after seeing her cry continuously. He will be honest and admit he's feeling this after knowing her real identity . He could now understand what has he done to her only after knowing it's her someone he love deeply. They say you only get to know when it has all happened with someone you care about and this is true he didn't really understand her until he's seeing her as woman he loves

"Shant hojaye Shehnaaz hum apko lekr chale ge kal theek hai abhi hospital chalen mere sath" He held her shaky hands in his own and looked into her eyes calmly. She shook her head with more tears coming down

"Hume apke sath kahen nahi jana hume apne ghar jana hai abhi" She begged him. He felt really guilty for being reason for her this state, she's scared and broken this much that she doesn't wanna stay with him

Her kajal and liner slid down her cheeks with tears, hazel eyes of hers were dull and lifeless as she was literally begging him to take her back home. Her home and he understand when she first said it, he wasn't ready to let her go but seeing her like this. Even if she ask for divorce right now from him he will give her and here he realise how much big of weakness she is his

"Meri jaan. Injuries check karwa len wada krte hain hum phir apko ghar chor denge" He cupped side of her face with his large hand lovely and gently, he wiped her tears with other hand

"Abhi jana hai hume abhi" This time she demanded but has pleading looks in her eyes. This couldn't convince her further and agreed to her demand knowing how bad he has fucked up this time

All this time, she was little far from walking away and he didn't realise it. Now when he's looking at her he knows she's literally few steps away from depression. Who wouldn't be when your family has thrown you in marriage where your husband doesn't love you and confess loving someone else. Sidharth has fucked this all up and he knows this more than anyone now

He entered estate of Nawab Nisar and stoped his car right in front of their gate to living room. He turn to look at Shehnaaz who still has tears in her eyes

"It was an accident" He doesn't want her to think that he will do something that low to make her leave him. She didn't answer him and process to open door but it was locked

Sidharth has no heart to unlock doors. He just want to apologise to her and make everything alright between them. He knows he has messed up big but he's ready to do anything for her to forgive him. He also has many questions to ask, knowing how much she hates him it wasn't right time, so with heavy heart he unlocks door for her, as soon as he did and didn't waste time walking out

He also got off his car and watched her get inside. His heart wasn't at peace and won't be until he's sure she has forgiven him. He was about to get inside his car when Nisar came from garden area with shawl wrapped around him and by look on his face Sidharth has ideas from how long he has been here. Their had intense eye-contact more like war before Sidharth looked away and set down in his car. Here he knows it is going to be big battle for him if he wants his wife, Shehnaaz back