This is when things start to get real.. Things start hitting you instantly, the slightest joke, phrase or look hits you like a ton of bricks. You're insecurities thrive and that's all you focus on. It gets to the days where you deliberately walk out in front of a car when crossing the road, daring yourself to do anything that could end it all now. The days where you could take endless amounts of pills without a care in the world. These are the days you find it hard to live in your own skin. You start making stupid mistakes but some you will never live to regret. You wish and wish and pray that these mistakes can cost you your life but sadly they fail because maybe your just not ready to leave yet..
You get angry when those around you won't let you end it all. When they stop you from doing that one awful thing which in reality it's all your mind can focus on at any moment.
Maybe life doesn't want you to leave yet.. Even thought deep down inside you KNOW it's the right choice to make, maybe for once in your life you can stop feeling pain forever and restore your happiness by putting yourself in a better place..
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battle scars
Non-FictionYou know what really kills a person..? Having bullied them so much that they took an Ice cold blade to their skin. Putting them through so much hate they loose all self belief.. Putting them at a war with themselves can cost them their own lives.. ...
