duvet| stu m. & billy l. [finished]

the sea

trigger warning; mental breakdown

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being with them at first was like heaven but now it was like an eternity of pure torture.

you were unhappy, you felt like you had fallen out of love.

no, that couldn't possibly be it. your mind was just cloudy. or was it?

looking back you all were apart of one sick plan. you hated it.

you were a murderer, but it intrigued you, you were mentally ill and psychotic and you knew that.

but would that judge your thoughts to make you have a crush on someone?

yes it would.

you never really loved billy or stu, just the idea of them.

you liked the idea of being loved. you had a hole in your heart that you needed to be filled and you fixed yourself with the two boys or tried.

they had broken your heart countless times when you remembered what they truly are, murderers.

but so were you, did that make your situation any better?

you had no clue.

you were just so god damn tired.

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your eyes softened as you sat at the red light, your favorite song playing softly in the background.

you looked out at the street of the small town the day was early and their was a light fog still out as a few cars were on the road.

you were hit with deja vu, you were back in woodsboro and you were sitting in the front seat of your parents car, you were driving back from somewhere and when you turned your head you were met with the faces of your now dead 'friends.'

your eyes glossed over. the light was now green but your car never moved the cars behind you went around honking their horns and going on with their day.

you sat in your car crying into the steering wheel, before tossing your head back and maniacally laughing.

you didn't know why you had started laughing but you couldn't stop as tears fell down your face pooling on your chin.

your head rested on your satin car covers. your laughter had stopped but you still were crying staining your jacket.

the fog was gone and you had pulled into a parking lot. you had done many tactics to try and calm you done but to no avail.

you turned up the radio and didn't care what song was playing you just knew music would help you in a time like this.

the radio played many songs that were unintelligible for you as the words were blocked by your own thoughts being too loud.

you couldnt take this anymore. billy and stu had made you crazier.

you wanted to be happy and healthy.

but could you truly ever acheive that with them.

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A/N were reaching the final chapters !! i didn't really know what to do with this book but ik how im gonna end it.

triple upload!!