I wish he thought i was cute. I wish i wasn't just a phase. I wish i would be seen as more than just casual, but someone to build something with. I wish someone thought i was cute, special, that my mess is a charm, that my constant jokes are charming and make me, me. i wish i had someone who i could share my whole person with, to completely open myself, and relieve some pressure off my shoulders.
i wish men would stop holding my hand drunk if they just want casual. i wish men would not call me cute if all they want is casual. i wish men would not tell me "i invited you to show you that we can spend time together without having to sleep together". i wish men would stop saying i'm complicated. i wish i weren't complicated. i wish men wouldn't cuddle me if they just want casual. i wish men wouldn't offer me coffee or breakfast if they just want casual. i wish men wouldn't stay over to watch another movie, cause why not?
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Récits d'un amour compliqué
PoetrySome texts I have written when my heart opens when the moon is shining, while I smoke, sobbing, my poor cigarette.
