Amaranthine Love

8

"Do you remember now?" Riki ask.

"What do you mean remember? I don't remember anything from last night." I lied to him, because I was too embarrassed.

"Eh, your face is so red. Are you cold?" His hand automatically reached out my head.

He's feeling my body temperature. With his hand.

His other hand move and wrapped my waist. He hugged me.

"Don't move and stay here. I will get you blanket." He go to my room and search for the blanket.

I don't know what he's doing, but my heart almost explode because of him. He doesn't know how much I like him.

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My feelings for you
Like the memories we share
Have grown so big
Summer's already gone and it's autumn
Been waiting all this time
- Ditto; Newjeans -

This lyrics relate to me so much. Emotionally and mentally, I really want to get back to Miryeong.

But, I know now. She like Nishimura Riki. Niki is the one she like. My brother. Not blood related, but still my parents adopt him.

I am sure that Niki also find her attractive. The way Niki scold me when knowing what I did to her, just show how much he like her.

I am so jealous.

I really want her, but because of my stupidity, I loss her. Just like that, she moved on. And I'm still here waiting for her.

I don't blame her.

"Hyung, eat." Niki gave me a container of food. It's like a homemade food.

"What is this?" I asked him.

"Food."

"I know it is food, but why are you giving it to me?" I ask cause he never share his food to me.

"Ah, Miryeong ask me to give it to you."

Gosh, she always make me speechless at her action.

I open the container, and there's note that she put.

'Sunoo-ya. I didn't say this last time, but I really miss you too. But again, I am so sorry that I can't accept your affection anymore. It hurt me. And, this will be the last time I will send you message through Riki, cause I really want to have nothing to do with you. Don't hate Riki, if you want to hate anyone, hate me, for liking your own brother. That's all I want to say, I wish you luck and find someone who will always love you as much as how you love me.'

I cried reading the letter. She was too good to be my ex.

She is so pure and so honest. Not even once she cheat on me during our relationship, but I did cheat once. I don't deserve her.

"Niki, I love her so much." Niki just stand there, watching me crying.

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Sunghoon come back home today. So I need to prepare him a good meal, and I need to cook.

His favourite food is bibimbap, but there's nothing special about it, so I was thinking to make kimchi stew and grilled beef as side dish to bibimbap.

"I'm home, Yeong!" he just call me whatever he want, but I still love him though.

"Welcome home, hyung!" I said, in a joking tone.

"What hyung? I'm your oppa, naughty." he pinch my cheek hearing that come out from my mouth.

"Please go take a bath. You stink." even though we are 11 months apart, I still see him as a person in my own age.

"What? You little." he want to catch me, but I ran faster to my room.

"Just you wait, Yeong!"

I am so glad that my mom give birth to me, someone who will always be there for Sunghoon. I can't even imagine, how is his life without me.

As he will be very lonely, I pity him. That's why I always stick with him, like a glue.

Sunghoon oppa, I hope that you're grateful for having a sister like me.