Irresistible

Chapter 12

SIYEONS POV

Im sitting on the floor going over and over what just occurred.

*an hour before*
"Siyeon?", she said with wide eyes. "What are you doing here?", i asked confused. "I live here and own the place, what are you doing here and why are you going into that apartment?", she asked. "My girlfriend lives here", i said. "You are still putting on a show I see", she rolled her eyes. "I'm not putting on a show how many times must I repeat myself?", i said angrily. "You aren't gay you never were you were just bored", she said matter of factly. "Wow to think it's been 6 years since I cut you off and you are still lost in your own delusion of reality", i scoffed. "I'm not the one who is lost in a delusion, that's you. You are choosing a perverted lifestyle that will get you into hell. And you didn't cut me off I disowned you", she smirked. "Fuck you, I hope I never run into you ever again. You were never a good mom you always put yourself before us and only believed in false shit to fit your narrative so you could be the fucking victim. Just so you know the god you believe in will never let you into his heaven because you are nothing more than just a bitter excuse for a human so respectfully fuck off", i said walking into the apartment.

I broke down crying, I was shaking from my anxiety because of her. I try my best to not let things get to me but she knows what buttons to push. Growing up her and I had the best relationship I would lay and talk to her all day  or go get coffee and get our nails done, she was my best friend up until I was 20 when I came out to her she said that I wasn't and I was bored and that's why I wanted to date women. That moment broke my heart she always said she would support me no matter what in life, and as much as I hate to think about her I can't help it because sometimes I just want my mom but it sucks when they don't want anything to do with you over one thing. "Baby?". I look up and see sua rubbing her eyes as she walked over. "Sorry love I went for some air", i said wiping my face. "Are you okay baby?", she asked rushing over to me, I couldn't help but breakdown, she pulled me into a tight hug and I cried in her arms she sat with me on the floor holding me while I cried. After I finally calmed down she got up and got me a cup of water and and advil for the headache she knew would come. "Come on babe", she said holding her hand out for me i take her hand and we go back to her room where we cuddled, one thing I love about sua is that she doesn't pry until she thinks I'm ready she gives me my space emotionally so I'm able to fully process everything but she will always sit and watch to make sure I'm okay. To me that is the best thing a partner can do.

SUAS POV

We laid in bed cuddling until she fell asleep, seeing her upset like this hurts me and as much as I wanted to ask I know I need to wait until she is ready! I stayed awake making sure she was okay until around 5am when I finally fell asleep, I pulled her closer before finally drifting off.

I wake up a few hours later to her still asleep I get up and and make sure she is okay before I go to the kitchen I grab her some orange juice and more advil because I know from experience that when you go to sleep crying you wake up with a terrible headache I go back and set the drink and pills on the side tabled and sit on the floor next to her side of the bed I pull my knees to my chest and rest my head on them as I looked in her direction I watch as her chest rises and falls as she breathes and how her lashes rested on her cheeks, and how her full lips were slightly parted and admired the barely visible freckle near here eyebrow, I sit and study every little thing about her, trying to not fall more and more for her. I want nothing more than to protect her from anything and everything I don't want her to ever feel hurt or sad or angry I want to be the person she thinks of when she feels any of those emotions meaning I want her to come to me and vent or just feel everything she needs to feel and have her know I'll be by her side regardless of anything. I sometimes worry that I push too much of my feelings onto her and that prevents her from wanting to talk about whatever is bothering her. I close my eyes and rest my forehead on my knees, just thinking of how I need to be more present for her and I feel regretful for always being the one who breaks down and not allowing her to breakdown. "Sua?", her voice is hoarse I look up and see her red puffy eyes looking at me "Hi baby, how's your head?", I asked softly caressing her face. "It hurts a bit", she said sitting up. "Here my love take these", I give her the pills and juice she takes them and pull her hair back into a ponytail. "Why don't we go away for the weekend just the two of us", I asked. "What do you have in mind?" She asked. "How about the beach i can rent a place for us just to relax for a bit", I suggested. "That sounds great, but let me at least cover half baby", she said. "Nope, I'm covering it because you are cooking while we are there", I smiled innocently. "I can't with you", she laughed kissing my cheek. I grab my phone and book a small condo ocean front for us, "let's pack baby", I said jumping up moping to boost her mood she laughs out and helps me pick out clothes from my closet we get dressed and head to her apartment we head up as soon as we arrived we enter and see jiu and yoohyeon sitting on the couch "good morning how was last night?", jiu asked. "It was great she surprised me with a romantic dinner, I painted her back and we ended the night with a bath and cuddles", she said leaving out what happened after. "Awe that sounds great", yoohyeon smiled. "Do you need any help baby?" I asked. "No I'll be quick", she said kissing my forehead before heading to her room. I sit with jiu and yoohyeon "I have something to tell you but keep your voices down okay?", I said in a hushed tone. "You're making me nervous", jiu said in a whisper. "Siyeon kinda broke down last night and I'm worried about her",I said quieter than before. "What happened?", yoohyeon asked. "Well I woke up and was alone in the bed so I got up to see where she went and I found her in front of the door crying she said she went out for air but what could've made her break down the way she did", I said quietly. "I don't know, but just be there for her, make sure she is okay and comfort her when she needs it and until she is ready to tell you",jiu said. After a couple minutes she comes out with a duffel bag and a backpack, "where are you two going?", yoohyeon asked, "I got us a small place for the weekend by the beach so we can decompress", i said standing up. "Nice, well you two have fun you deserve it", jiu smiled. "Thank you we'll see you in a few days", Siyeon said as we walked out of the apartment. We load up the car grab some coffee and snacks make make the two hour drive to the place I kept stealing small glances during the drive her face was blank, she had no expression, she stared out the window holding my hand only letting go to take a drink of her coffee or eat her snack. I've never seen her like this "I'm okay babe please don't worry", she said drawing me out of my thoughts. "I didn't say anything", I said as I exit the freeway. "You don't have to I can't tell by the way you breathe you are worried", she chuckled. "I'll try not to, but whenever you are ready please don't hesitate to talk to me baby", I said as I stopped at a light. "I know baby and I appreciate you so much", she said taking my hand and kissing it. After a few more minutes we arrive at the house it looked out at the ocean "Are we at a resort or what this place is beautiful", she said as we pulled in. "Nope, this is all of us, wait until you get inside", i said as we got out the car, we unload our bags and head in as soon as we stepped in we were still met with the same beautiful view she left her bags in the middle of the living room and walked out to the patio I follow behind with a big smile. "Babe this is too much I don't deserve any of this also how much was this place? ", she said in awe. "That is something I won't answer because you will try to pay me back and yes you do deserve this! Wait until you see the bedroom", I said smirking. "Show me", she said wide eyed. I take her hand and pull her to the bedroom, this view even more beautiful than the others the bed sat in the middle of the room looking over the view. "Babe, you got this for us?", she asked still in disbelief. "Yes just for us", i said tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. "I don't deserve you",she said wrapping her arms around me. "No I don't deserve you! You deserve everything my love", I said cupping her face and kissing her she picks me up and lays me on the bed I pull away and take my shirt off she does the same and connects our lips once again she kisses down from my lips to my neck, I moan softly at her gentleness with one arm she lifts me up just enough so her other hand can unclip my bra she pulls it off and tosses it on the floor  she kisses down to my breasts and stomach as she does that I undo her jeans I pull her onto the bed and straddle her I kiss her neck and bite down gently leaving a mark I pull off her jeans I go down and kiss her inner thighs up to her mouth she pulls me into a passionate kiss my tongue makes it's way in her mouth she lightly sucks on it making me want to go absolutely insane my hand rubs over her underwear causing us to part she moans out "please baby don't tease", she begged. I pull her underwear off and whisper in her ear "I want you to ride my face", i said laying down she gets up and hovers over my face I slowly pull her down and start eating her out she falls back on her hand trying to support herself she grinds on my tongue slow at first but picks up I suck her clit and she jerks forward her other hand is entangled in my hair pulling me closer "fuck baby", she moans out she grinds faster each thrust gets harder and her moans get louder after a few more she screams out "Baby I'm cumming", I feel a hot liquid all over my chin I clean her up before she collapses on the bed. I wanted to make her feel good this entire weekend isn't about me it's about her. I pull her in for another kiss this kiss was more passionate than every other kiss we've shared this kiss was full of passion and love not lust. My fingers do a little dance down her body to her center as I insert two fingers she pulls me deeper into the kiss with every thrust she deepens the kiss up until she cums for the 2nd time we pull away as breathing became necessary. She smiled at me tiredly she tried to  make a move on me but I stopped her "Today is all about you", i said before pecking her lips she looked at me with doe eyes and nodded knowing I wouldn't give in I get up and go to the bathroom and draw a bath I light the candles I had brought put a lavender bath bomb in the tub "baby come on I drew us a bath", I said helping her up my poor baby was wobbling over to the bathroom I pick her up and take her the rest of the way "even the bathtub has a freaking view?", she said is awe. I set her down and she gets in the tub I take off the remainder of my clothes and get in with her I look at the beautiful girl across from me and can't help but admire her fully. "Come over here", she said calling me over to her I sit between her legs and lean against her she moves my hair out of the crook of my neck and rests her chin there this is what happiness feels like, I don't need anything other than this right now. We stay in the tub watching the sunset until the water got cold we get out and change into pajamas "Come on baby we are doing your favorite thing", i said holding my hand out for her, her eyes lit up as she took my hand we lock up and get in the car we drive to the nearest fast food place and get something to eat. We get to the beach fairly quickly and open the trunk and sit listening to the waves and have dinner. "Why are we doing all of this babe?" She asked curiously. "Because I love you and I want you to know that no matter what it is you are going through that I am able to help you through it and so that you know that I will drop everything to make sure you are okay", i said sitting back I see her eyes well up with tears "Is this about last night?", she asked finally bringing it up. "Yes but we don't have to talk about it if you aren't ready I just want you to be comfortable enough for you to talk to me when you need to", I said wiping her tears.

SIYEONS POV

All day I noticed sua walking on egg shells around me trying to give me space but also be here for me and knowing she did this whole thing just to show that she was here for me made me feel so grateful for her and thankful that I have someone who is so supportive and thoughtful and I think holding in everything already was too much for me but having her explain this was just tip of the iceberg. I hug her and just sob she says nothing and just rubs my back  as I cry out. After a few minutes I gather myself enough to finally tell her what happened. "So last night after you had fallen asleep I had went down to get some air just because I was worried about you, I finally went up after an hour when I got to your door a woman walked past me and it turned out to be my mom we had a really bad interaction and I completely broke down, it was the first time I had seen her in 6 years and she had not changed one bit and it hurt me. I had a great relationship with her growing up with her and when I came out every changed she disowned me she was verbally abusive towards me luckily I was in college so I didn't have to live with her or talk to her and over the years I learned to be okay with it and okay with not having her in my life but I had a small glimpse of hope that she would come around and with our interaction last night that hope was crushed". I said breaking down again. She pulls me into a tight hug. "She does not deserve to have you in her life she does not deserve to see the amazing kind beautiful person that you are and she doesn't deserve to be apart of the amazing things you will be accomplishing in the future. You have your real family with you, as in jiu yoohyeon handong gahyeon Dami and myself, we love you more than anything baby. If she doesn't see how amazing you are she doesn't need to be in your life", she said cupping my chin with one of her hands. This is why I don't deserve this girl, this girl is the most amazing kind hearted girl I've ever met and I have no clue how I got so lucky to be able to call her mine. "Do you think we could have the girls over here tomorrow I know this was for us but I would love to have everyone around as well", I asked as I wiped my tears. "Of course baby I will text them as soon as we get back to the house", she said pecking my lips. We spend a couple hours there watching the waves cuddled with one another until it got too cold. The drive back was quiet but comfortable we get in the house and go to the room, after all the crying and sex I was drained. "Let's go to bed I'm tired". I said plopping down. "You don't have to tell me twice let's go", she said pulling the sheets back and get in bed we check the time and I start laughing. "Babe it's only 10pm", I giggled. "Are you serious?", she asks laughing out. "Are we an old couple now?", i giggled. "I guess so but I'm okay with that", she said cuddling into me. "Me too", she falls asleep after a few minutes and I lie there content with everything, I'm happy I finally talked about everything with sua and I feel safe knowing she listened and didn't try to give me advice, this girl is all I need to be happy!

A/n: long time no see! It has been a while, to shortly explain I got a new job that requires my full attention for the most part! I did write somewhat I have 2 chapters done besides this one!