(Twisted Reflection)
My body keeps me alive
It does everything right
Yet I judge it all the time
It goes like...
Eat that Cake
Smile! Pretend!
It tastes so good, it looks great
I enjoy myself
Maybe a little too much?
My Smile it fades
Thoughts rearrange, it's strange
I'm distressed, gotta be the best
And to be honest I HATE THAT FUCKING CAKE!
Never change my mindset
But always know I could be thinner
If i want to be a winner
I gotta loose a little weight
Starve myself, do not fill that plate!
It's self-loathing, hate, hate, hate
Inside I am so afraid
What if I meet somebody?
And it's a date
We take it to my bedroom
And I undress, until nothing's left
And they go like "You should loose some pounds!"
WHAT IF YOU DON'T LOVE ME AFTER YOU HAVE SEEN ME WITHOUT MY MASK?
Because I'm changing like the seasons
Never need no reason
Fucking like a demon
"What about a threesome?"
"Bet she likes that!"
Wild and free at heart
People-Pleaser, it's hard
Am I nice or just fake?
Guess it's the price I have to pay for being Anti-social-social
Or my Mother's serendipity
Don't ask for much, just want to be free
<I WANT TO BE SEEN>
I want to be forgotten, like that old bottle of whiskey still standing on the shelf
Waiting to be useful...End
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Poetrythese are some poems i've written the last one and a half years. memories and random thoughts, some are sad, angry, painful and some are happy, romance etc. (warning!!!) there might be themes in some of my poems who could be triggering to some of ya.
