Jasper Academy (Old Version)

New Feelings

It took a few moments before either of us spoke again. We stood there lost in each others eyes, Fallon's thumb still placed on my tongue. Eventually, he shook himself out of his trance, taking his hand back. I closed my mouth finally, my tongue dry from being exposed to the air for so long. I took a deep breath, still backed against the wall. Fallon bit his lip, his eyes glancing over me. I cleared my throat, an awkward tension between us. "Well... I assume we're... good now?" I ask slowly, swallowing nervously. He took in a shaky breath, meeting my eyes once more, nodding quickly. "Yeah... Yeah we're... good." He repeated, his gaze falling to my lips once again. My heart jumped as I realized were he was looking. I licked my lips, my own gaze shifting to Fallon's lips. My breathing picked up as I fought the urge to kiss him again, though I could tell that he was thinking the exact same thing. I don't want to look too... eager, I guess. But damn, did it ever feel good when he kissed me. His lips are so soft... the way they pushed into mine... Holy shit, where did that come from? Oh, I am so done for...

My legs trembled slightly as I tried keeping myself in control. Fallon leaned forward suddenly, placing his hands beside my head once more. My heart jumped to my throat again, and I leaned back against the wall, still not used to these feelings. Will I ever get used to this? Am I... supposed to get used to it? Feels like I'm being tazed... I stared into Fallon's dark blue eyes, my chest heaving as I panted lightly from stress. He seemed to take note of this, pausing for a moment. His actions made him look almost... desprate. It scared me, but also excited me at the same time. Fallon grumbled to himself, appearing frustrated. I swallowed nervously again, feeling myself sweating from the heat between us. The look in his eyes... It made him feel like an entirely different person. He looked animalistic, and it terrified me. Oddly though, it also felt strangley alluring.

Fallon leaned closer, his mouth parted slightly. Again, I could feel his breath hot on my lips. It sent a shiver down my spine, making me lose control. I grabbed his head with both hands, pulling him closer, closing the gap between our lips, a soft moan escaping me as I squeezed my eyes shut, pushing my body on his. He let out a muffled gasp, pushing back against me. I could feel his heart beating rapidly against my own, racing to the speed of the moment. I pulled away after a few seconds, still holding his face. His eyes shimmered with a desire, causing me to lean back slightly. I... I want this, but... it scares me. The way he's looking at me... it makes me shiver. How the hell am I supposed to go back to 'living my life' after this? Jesus, I see what he means. This is driving me insane.

Fallon breaks the silence between us. "Did you just... kiss me?" He asks, knowing fully what the answer to that was. My eyes widen, my face heating up once more with blush. "I-I... Well, you leaned in, so technically it was... um... it was y-you, because... well..." I stammered, my hands trembling as I let go of his face, folding my arms behind my back. He smirked. "You grabbed my face... quite aggressivley, at that, and pulled me into you." He recalled, a smug look on his face. I scrunched my face, turning my head to the side. "Well, if you know the answer, then why the hell did you ask?" I grumbled. Fallon chuckled. "Because I wanted to hear you say it." He replied in a teasing tone.

I closed my eyes, unable to look at him right now. My breathing felt heavy, making my knees buckle as I grew weaker. I placed my hands behind me on the wall, bracing myself as I fell down slowly. Fallon's expression changed, now concerned. He grabbed my waist, standing me back upright. He kept his hands on my sides, steadying me as I took in deep breaths, trying to calm down. All these feelings were making me weak and dizzy. He gently guided me to his bed, sitting me down, kneeling in front of me, his hands on my legs. I sighed, bracing myself on the bed. "Are you okay?" Fallon asked softly. I nodded, opening my eyes again. "I'm fine. This is just..." I shook my head, chuckling. "This is a little overwhelming. It... um... It felt good, though. Really good." I mumbled shyly, blushing furiously. Fallon blushed too, chuckling. His mouth opened as if he was about to speak, but paused as the door to his room opened suddenly. He jumped back, panting lightly as he panicked. My eyes widened, a panic rising in me too.

Allek peaked his head into the room, looking curious. When he noticed Fallon on the floor, he pushed the door open. "You alright there?" He asked, looking between the two of us. Fallon and I nodded quickly. "We're fine." Fallon said quickly. "All good." I replied soon after. Allek raised an eyebrow suspiciously. He clearly knew something was up, but decided to leave it alone. "Looks like you're feeling better." Allek notes, nodding his head to Fallon. "Yeah, Nathan talked to me. We just had a fight earlier, but it's good now." Fallon replied with confidence, telling only half of the truth. He still looked slightly flustered, though. I hoped Allek wouldn't notice. "I see. Well, I'm glad you two are doing better now." He said cheerily, reaching for the door handle. He nodded to each of us, turning and closing the door as he left. Fallon and I both let out a sigh of relief, glancing at each other. "He definitley knows something is up." I say, frowning. Fallon nods, frowning too. "There's no doubt there. We weren't being very... subtle." He says, chuckling sheepishly. I stand up, offering a hand to Fallon. He takes it, lifting himself up with my help. He stands tall in front of me, looking down into my eyes, still holding onto my hand. I glance up at him, blushing softly again.

My head falls down again. "Jesus..." I mutter quietly. I lean my head against his chest, letting out a long sigh, wrapping my arms around his waist. He stands frozen for a moment, wrapping his arms around my back. He rests his head on mine, taking in a deep breath. "I've never felt like this before." I mumble against his chest. "This... peaceful. This happy." I add, squeezing his waist gently. Fallon lets out a content sigh, nuzzling my head. After staying in his arms for a moment, I let go, taking a few steps back. He smiles warmly at me. I smile back, looking down slyly, blushing. "I should..." My voice trails off, and I frown. "Go." Fallon finishes for me. I nod sadly, meeting his eyes again. He looked at peace. Seeing him like that eased my mind. "It's alright. I understand." He says softly. My smile returns. "Thanks. This was... really nice." I mumble, my voice quiet. "I guess I have some self-discovering to do." I say with a chuckle. Fallon chuckles, too. I take a few steps towards the door, turning to face him one last time. He bites his lip, approaching me slowly. He takes my chin in one hand, placing a gentle kiss on my lips. I close my eyes, enjoying the moment. When he pulls back, he trails his finger to the tip of my chin, slowly taking his hand away. It made me shiver once more, my breath shaky. That feels... so good.

Fallon smiles again, and I return it. "See you tomorrow, Nathan." He says softly, still close together. I lick my lips slowly. It felt like he was still there. "See you tomorrow." I repeated. I stared into his hypnotic blue eyes for awhile, eventually turning around, opening the door, and leaving without looking back again. I would never be able to leave if I looked back at him. This is gonna be hard to hide. I just left... and I can't stop replaying it in my head.

I reached my dorm again, closing the door softly behind me. I noticed that my spilled cup was gone, and the mess had been cleaned up. I assumed that Max had gone to bed. With a content sigh, I walk into my room, taking my shoes and shirt off, laying down slowly, letting myself sink into the mattress again. I closed my eyes, and the only thing my mind would think about... was that moment between Fallon and I. Involuntarily, a soft moan escaped my lips. My eyes shot open, and I gasped, covering my mouth with a hand. "Shit." I whispered harshly. I'm physically reacting every time I think about it, but it's the only thing on my goddamn mind! I can't get it out of my head. What the hell am I supposed to do? I squeezed my eyes shut, clutching my head. It's not that I don't like thinking about it, it's just... I don't want to be moaning in the middle of a conversation or something when it suddenly pops into my mind again. Again, I sighed, trying to think of literally anything else as I slowly drifted into sleep.

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Hello!! I apologize for the shorter chapter, but I'm gonna be going on a trip for awhile, and I won't be able to post for a little bit, so I wanted to get another chapter out before I left! I'll also be writing a bunch in advance, so hopefully I'll be able to check out the new scheduled posting! If I do end up having a schedule, it would most likely be every Friday! This was a decently relaxing chapter, but we'll get back into things soon! As always, I hope you enjoyed this one, and I hope to see you in the next!

-Kane