I love you, but the rules forbid it.//Anakin Skywalker x fem! reader

So we meet again.

It's been a few weeks since I met Anakin, three weeks to be exact.
Three days after my master left for her mission I had received word that she had been killed in action. The council was giving me time to bounce back from losing my master before giving me an assignment.
Today I was meditating, just like she had taught me, when I felt a familiar presence enter the calm garden.
"Hello, Anakin." I said, not breaking my meditation.
"Hello. I was wondering if you wanted to be friends." Anakin walked up nervously.
"Sure." I replied.
Something felt off. Something bad was about to happen.
"Well, then maybe we-" Anakin was interrupted by me jumping up and using the force to stop a falling piece of the temple from crushing him.
Anakin noticed that I was struggling to keep it in the air and helped me by using his force to help move it to the ground beside him.
What the hell? I thought it would be impossible for the temple to start crumbling?
I'm as confused as you are.
I heard Anakin's voice in my head and jumped. My eyes shot from the rubble to Anakin and he was as shocked as me.
"How'd you get past my carefully curated mind barrier?" I was defensive now.
"I-I don't know, it sort of just happened. I thought you—we were talking out loud." Anakin explained.
"I-...I need some time to think this over.." I said as I walked away.
"Yeah... go ahead..." Anakin let me walk away.
Obi-wan approached me.
"Are you alright, young Goldfinch?"
"Yeah, just, weirded out. What's up?" I asked Obi-wan.
"The council wants you. You should tell them what happened." Obi-wan advised.
"Yeah, see you around, Kenobi." I said goodbye to the Padawan.
"See you around, Y/N."

It's been 9 years since I was given the task of protecting Senator Padme Amidala. Although I am not a Jedi Knight I was told that on this mission I will have the authority and responsibilities of one. The council was very clear on that. I am completing my training through hologram calls and books, the council is training me. They figured this would be easier since I have to focus on the senator's safety at night and while we're out and about.
At least while we were sitting in the same room I could train and do my job at the same time. It was honestly nice, I had a nice room and a nice bed, the food was much better than what they served us in the temple, while I still stayed in modest clothing Padme would buy fancier robes for me for balls, parties, important meetings, and conferences. As my wardrobe grew, I found myself liking the traditional Jedi robes more than the fancy robes I was given. It reminded me of my home, my master, the place I lived before protecting Padme, and it reminded me of Anakin. The robes brought me comfort when I was doubting myself.
Today was no different. Padme sat on the sofa and went over documents and read books while Master Windu gave me advise and taught me more of the way of the force. It was while we were meditating that Padme received a call from the rest of the council, we had to switch the holopad from the training room to the council chamber and Master Windu showed up shortly after the switch.
"Sorry about cutting your training session a little short, we are." Master Yoda apologized.
"It is fine Master, I can just continue meditating while you speak to Senator Amidala." I replied, my voice lacking its usual purpose and sounding as if I was half there due to me not losing focus.
"Senator, it has come to our attention that you are being pursued by an assassin. We will be sending another Jedi and his padawan to strengthen your defense." Master Windu told Padme.
Boy was I glad to be half-there. At the time I wasn't fully processing what was being said.
"But Y/N has been doing good so far! She's more than enough security!" Padme reasoned.
"Better to be safe than sorry, it is. Send two more Jedi, we have decided." Master Yoda chimed in.
"Fine. But I'm not happy with this." Padme agreed finally.
"Calm yourself, Senator. I'm sure it won't be too bad. At least you won't have to deal with someone who would annoy you. Jedi aren't too bad." I assured Padme.
"Well, don't promise that. We're sending Padawan Skywalker your way." Master Windu commented.
The call ended there.
"How are you sure I don't get annoyed with you?"
"I am able to sense your emotions, Senator. You've never felt annoyed by me, although you do seem to enjoy my peaceful and humble presence."
I'm most truthful and deep-thinking when I'm meditating. My words may lack there usual purpose and make me sound half dissociated but it's when I'm the most honest.
The doorbell rings and the guard answers the door.
"Hello. We are here for Senator Amidala." A familiar, accented voice said to the chief of security.
"I'm over here. Sorry, I'm not allowed more than five feet away from Y/N while she's meditating. I don't mind it though." Padme called from the couch behind me.
The two men walked over and... there it was... that familiar pull... that familiar energy... where did you remember it from?
"Young Goldfinch, would you mind joining us?" The familiar voice spoke.
I opened my eyes and got up.
Why is it still so hard to pull myself straight out?
My vision is blurry and my eyes are unfocused. I turn around and walk to where I knew Padme was and stood behind her. I was still out of it, Padme turned and grabbed my hand, my eyes darted to her and my eyes focused on her. My vision becoming clear and the fog in my head going away.
"Are you back?" Padme asked softly.
"Almost. It's still hard to come back at a moment's notice even though I've done it thousands of times." I said, my tone still slightly dream-like.
"I take it you meditate deeply." Obi-wan commented.
"Yes. I find it much more beneficial to meditate deeply than to stay on the surface. A deep meditation also substitutes quite well for a good night's rest." I replied, looking at Obi-wan and looking at him.
"It's been a long time, Y/N. How have you been?" Obi-wan asked.
"I've been alright. Nothing too bad has happened, or at least nothing I could not handle." I said calmly, withdrawing my hand from Padme's.
"That is good. I expect your training is going well?"
"Yes. And you're a Jedi Knight now?"
"Yes, and you've already met my padawan, Anakin."
Obi-wan indicated the young Padawan standing to his left.
My heart flew as I looked in Anakin's eyes and he looked back in mine. His ocean blue eyes held mine in a trance, he had soft features that charmed me to no avail, he had short hair on the top of his head and longer hair in the back, his padawan braid lay on his shoulder, he smiled at me, an adorable, charming smile.
Butterflies erupted in my stomach and I turned away, seemingly unfazed.
My, how could nine years change so much?
Because we were kids when we last saw each other.
I forgot that happened.
"You should sit, Y/N. Right now you take on the responsibilities and privileges of a knight. The council has also told me to inform you that the next time you come to the temple to report to them. I believe they're thinking of graduating you from being a padawan." Obi-wan told me.
I hesitantly walked around the couch and sat next to Padme, essentially where I was just standing but instead I was sitting on the couch.
I could sense Anakin's jealousy.
"Calm yourself, Anakin. You'll both be knights soon enough." Obi-wan chided his arrogant padawan.
"So am I allowed to know who's after me?" Padme asked the two Jedi in front of us.
"You know as much as we do. We believe that there is an assassin after you, Senator. We don't know who, and we don't know why." Obi-wan responded.
"So we're in the dark and acting on suspicion? Sounds like a normal day for me." I commented.
"Will I still be able to leave the apartment?" Padme asked.
"We think so, that's why two more Jedi were tasked to protect you." Obi-wan answered.
Padme looked at me and I nodded. Over the years Padme has learned to trust my instinct. When I say I think we shouldn't go to an event we stay in, I say we can go to an event we go. It's been like this for about seven years.
"Alright. Come on, we have to pick out my dress for tonight. Then we can get you ready." Padme got up and walked off to her bedroom and I followed.
As Padme showed me potential dresses for the party tonight she showed me an elegant blood red one that was modest with a turtleneck collar, the shoulders cut out, the skirt went down to her ankles and was flowy and hid what was underneath quite nicely, the sleeves were skin-tight and had a hook at the end for her middle fingers. The dress had white accents and the top was form-fitting with white lace, the design was simple on the skirt.
It took my breath away.
"That one." I breathed and smiled at her.
"Good, I got a matching one for you, here." She pulled a similar dress out of the closet.
This one had black accents instead of white, full sleeves, and an extra layer of lace on the skirt that didn't wrap all the way around the front. It also looked more like a sweater at the top.
"It's... it's wonderful..." I took the dress from her.
"Can you help me with my hair before you get into that?" Padme asked, sitting down at her vanity.
"Yeah. Of course." I lingered for a second longer before going in and helping her style her hair.
We decided on two French braids that lead into buns.
Padme stepped out to grab the cloak she got made for my new dress. While she was out in the other room I was putting on the dress and needed help with the zipper. I was about to use the force to zip it up when it zipped up seemingly on its own.
"Why on earth are you wearing a dress?" Anakin said from behind me.
"Padme likes to have me match with her at events and parties. This is the first dress she's gotten me." I told him, I walked towards the vanity.
I put my hair up like this:

(You can change it if you'd like)
I then walked over to my discarded clothes and grabbed my essentials.
I attached my lightsabers to the loops on the dress and put my communicator in a secret pocket.
"Sorry for the wait, I forgot which closet I put the cloak in." Padme appeared behind Anakin and walked over to me.
The cloak was plain black and similar in style to the one I wore when I was in my Jedi robes. I put it on and the Padme lead me back over to the vanity. There she put some simple makeup on my face, just some liner, a little blush, mascara, and less noticeable lipstick.
Me and Anakin walked into the main room while Padme finished.
God, she's beautiful.
I heard Anakin's voice in my head.
Careful, Anakin. Attachment is forbidden, remember?
I chided him.
But, why?
He asked.
I don't know. I just know that's the rule.
I answered.
Well the rule is stupid!
"Anakin!" Obi-wan and I warned at the same time.
"What? It is!" Anakin defended.
Obi-wan sighed, "You'll understand one day."
Padme came out and said it was time to go, and so we went.
You need to learn how to use a mind barrier.
I told Anakin.
Like it'll stop you.
He replied.
It would stop Obi-wan from seeing the thoughts of you thinking about me.
I reasoned.
Anakin went bright red.
"Don't tease him too much, Y/N. We still need him to help out on the mission." Obi-wan chided.
"Yes, master." I returned to the task of flying the ship.
"So why are you dressed up?" Obi-wan asked me.
"Me and Padme have been going to events in matching outfits for eight years, she says it helps me blend in and not stick out like a sore thumb." I explained.
The Jedi hummed and the rest of the ride was quiet.