Tolerate it

Uh oh, im falling in love

I feel the sun on my face, it's a warm pleasant feeling. I go to roll around on my bed and I some how roll into the wall? No, I didn't. Fuck. I look over and see Joe sleeping, and I can't help but think I need to leave. I look around his room for my clothes not finding them. Then I remembered we had sex on his couch down stairs. I quickly jump out of his bed and rush down stairs to find all my clothes in a pile with his. I throw everything on, grab my phone from the coffee table and run out his door. I called Sandra to come pick me up, knowing I would have to tell her everything eventually.
" Hey, get in. We need to have a serious brunch debrief." Sandra yells out her window when she pulls up.
Even though Sandra is my manager, she's like my cook wine aunt who is rich and wears expensive everything. She's always been there for me when shit like this happens.
" okay but first you will hold all comments, questions and concerns till the end of my story. Understand?" I say with my serious face on, knowing she's got 100 questions flying through her head.
" fine let's go." She smiles at me, she knows this isn't a easy thing for me to talk about anymore. Not since me and Harry had been together for so long.
We pull up to this small coffee shop where the do endless cocktails for brunch on Fridays and I couldn't be more thankful. We go in and the young girl sees me and already knows what to do.
" I can give you a table in the back on out private patio we normally keep empty for parties and such, but you guys are better then a party." She smiles up at me, not a fan smile but a understanding smile that I don't want to be seen in this kinda light.
" I appreciate it. Thank you really." I politely say to her. As she walks us back my phone starts blowing up.
Hey, it's Joe, you out your number in my phone last night.

Where are you? Ava? We need to talk.
No  we don't, it's okay
Please let's just forget that it happened
I'll text you later going into a meeting.

" who was that? Was it Joe?" Sandra asks already knowing the answer.
" ya he said he wants to talk but I can't look at him right now. Told him I would text him later because I'm in a meeting right now." I explain, but the look in he face tells me I did something wrong.
" Ava, he clearly likes you, and I know from talking with Zach, he's a good guy. Maybe you should give him a chance. I'm not saying date him, but, just BE with him" she look at me with such sincerity, the kind only family could give you and Sandra is my family now.
" Sandy, I don't know. He seems like a relationship guy, and I can't do that right now. Not after what happened with Harry, he broke me to much to be with anyone for a long time. And Joes not someone I can hurt" I tell her trying to get her to understand that I can't hurt Joe.
" okay, but I want you to know, I will protect you from boys like Styles from now on. We will not have you publicly hurt like that again." She says, before I can respond her phone rings
" hello? Oh, uh hi Joe. Yes this is Sandra how did you get this number. Ah I see okay. Yes I'm with her, no, no meeting. I know I picked her up. Okay. How does 4 sound? I will drop her off back at your house once we finish our girls brunch. Wonderful. See you later Joe, bye." She ends the call and outs her phone down and takes off her ' I'm a manager don't fuck with me voice.
" so as you heard, once we're done here you're going back to Joes house and you're talking it through." She looks up at me with a small smirk on her lips. I huff and sit back in my chair, unimpressed with her.
" Fine. But I'm getting buzzed first" I say as our waitress comes over and takes our drink and food orders.

Me and Sandra gossip about everything and everyone. She tells me Adele was seen in Vegas getting shit faced but all of the pictures some how went missing magically. And how Niall called and said he would be coming down for my show next week. Zayn also said he was coming but will be staying back stage because of the crowd he says will to big. Finally I know it's time to face this bullshit of a mistake and go talk to Burrow.
"Okay let's do this." I told Sandra as I pay for everything even though she protested for a solid 15 minutes about me paying.
We go out and get in her car, and with in 20 minutes I back where I was this morning waiting for her to pick me up. She tells me that she had some shopping to do and would be back in two hours and that she loves me.
I walk up Joes driveway and knock on his door. When he opens it, I start to get flash backs to last night.
" Hey A, come on in. You know where to go." He tells me as he grabs my bag taking it into the kitchen.
As I sit on the couch I can't help but feel like I was going to be sick. I was going to face my fears and try. I was going to try with Joe.
" Joe, before you say anything. I'm talking, I need to get all this built up shit off my chest." I kinda yell at him once he sits down beside me.
" okay, jeez you don't have to yell hun. I'm right here. But go ahead." He smiles and as he does, I swear I melt.
"If you want to, I would be happy with us doing something casual. I know you're a good guy and you won't hurt me like others have in the past. For you Joe, I willing to try. Is that something you want?" I ask looking in his eyes. That's when I see a look on his face I have nerve wanted to see. The look of confusion.
" Ava, I can't. I can't be with you. It's off season and I need to start mentally preparing for the fact that I probably won't make it to the play offs ever again in my life. Also, what happened last night, I thought was just a one time thing? I'm sorry but I can't be with you right now." He says as I feel my self start to shut down. I feel my face pale, my hands start to sweat and I know, one hundred percent I'm going to throw up.
" Okay. That's fine. Goodbye Mr. Burrow." I say as if we just had a business meeting that didn't go my way.
" Ava wait" he says as I rush into the kitchen grab my bag and start to walk out to his front door. I can barely hear him, all I can hear is the blood in my ears, all I can hear is my heart shattering into, yet again, a million little fucking pieces.
" Ava, I didn't know you wanted me. I thought you would just fuck me to get over Harry, if I had known I wouldn't have done this to you." He yells as if that makes what happened any better.
" don't." Is all I say as I rush out his door, slamming it walking quickly to the closest store to wait for Sandra. The second I see her car. I open the door sit down and scream. I let it all out, and I know that if anyone saw me, they would think I was insane. And maybe I was. For thinking I could be happy after Harry.
" Sandra, I want you to inform all players that if I see any of them at my rehearsals over the next week. I will personally kick their asses and sue them." I tell her, and she looks at me like I have lost my mind.
" I don't even want to see another football player in my life." I grit put through my teeth. I'm not sad now, I am pure rage.
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Soooo.... ( hides behind something) how are we....
It's okay guys, I'll fix it :)
Anyways!!!!!!!!
Let's forget about that and get excited that I'm the next few chapters it's gonna be about her concert and her song writing. Oh ya, Dr. Taylor Swift is gonna make us cry now :) also don't know if I have made this clear but Ava, has all the same songs as Taylor, but not all of them have been 'written' in the story so buckle up bc we have evermore and folklore songs coming up 🤭🤭🤭
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