Illicit Affairs

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It's been two days since I walked out on Joe, I'm back at the stadium getting ready to take a stab at a song I had written that night.
" Okay Ava, remember if this doesn't work it's okay, no harm no foul." Sandra tells me as I get ready.

"Make sure nobody sees you leave,
Hood over your head keep your eyes down
Tell you're friends your out for a run,
You'll be flushed when you return."
I start off slow getting comfortable because I haven't sung this into the mic yet, and hearing it echo through the stadium makes me heart break.
" And that's the thing about illicit affairs,
And clandestine meetings and longing stares,
It brown from just one single glance
But it dies and it dies,
A million little times"
I can feel my eyes start to water as I think about how stupid I had been to think that Joe had been a guy I could settle down with. What I didn't see was how almost the entire team had been up in the nose bleeds hiding from me, knowing I would keep my promise of kicking their asses and suing them.
" For you I would ruin myself
A million little times."
I finish the song and look over at Sandra and I can tell she's trying so hard not to break  down, she knows how hard this all was for me, she understands I can't keep doing this again and again.
" Okay that was, good, ya that was really good hun."
As soon as she says hun my sob, even though Joe had only called me it once or twice, I felt like someone had ripped my heart out. I quickly try to compose myself but it's no use, I'm a mess, standing on this stage balling my eyes out. I'm not only crying because of the Joe thing, I'm crying because this is everything I didn't want, I didn't want this life anymore. Maybe I had when I was sixteen, but I wasn't young anymore.
" Sorry, I need a break." I quickly say to Sandra as I walk off and completely run out of the stadium.

Joes POV
Fuck.
That's all I can think is fuck. How did I fuck this up.
" shit sorry I have to go I forgot I promised my parents I would stop in tonight." I say to the guys.
They all nod their heads in understanding as I make my way through the row and out the stadium. I couldn't think straight anymore. It had been only two days and I couldn't get her out of my head. It hurt to think about her, and what made it worse is that she was everywhere, and I mean everywhere. Her songs on the radio, her pictures all over town, even at home when I turned on the TV they were talking about her. It almost made me hate her, almost.
I get to my car and turn it on, and the song that's playing? Well, it How you get the girl. My heart sank. My heart hurt knowing she wanted to try with me, after only being single for a few days, and I hurt her. Not as bad as he had, but still.
I quickly shut off the radio and drive home in silence. When I get home my phone lights up with a notification, I look and I almost screamed.
Gossip101

Gossip 101 Are Ava Sinclair and Harry styles back together? WE WANT TO KNOW This photo was taken from Ava's private account with the caption ' reunited and it feels so good' Here's what we know so far: Harry and Ava are both in Cincinnati, Harry w...

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Gossip 101
Are Ava Sinclair and Harry styles back together? WE WANT TO KNOW
This photo was taken from Ava's private account with the caption ' reunited and it feels so good'
Here's what we know so far: Harry and Ava are both in Cincinnati, Harry was seen near the stadium tonight and we all know Ava had a rehearsal tonight. Fans say they saw her get into a car and drive away, was Styles picking her up? Have they made amends?

Comments
User1
There's no way she would get back together with him!!!! Ava is way better the that!!
Harry4life
Okay I love Harry but she better not of! He fucked up big time with her!!!
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My heat shattered, I hope it wasn't true not only hoped, I prayed it was t. I knew what I had to do.
" Sandra tell me where she is now. No, I need to see her now, I need to talk to her please." My voice breaks at the end of the plead
" She's at her parents house for the weekend, right between a methodist and the high school she went to" Sandra gives in.
I hang up quickly and run out to the car, Sandra has sent me the address for her parents house as I sped on the highway to get to her.

When I pull up to the house I see a car parked in the drive way, and walked up and knocked on the door. A young boy opens the door, and he immediately try's to close it on me.
" Wait, please, is she here?" I ask the kid
" is who here? Who the fuck are you?" He sassed back at me.
I was shocked to say the least, the kid couldn't be older then 14, and he just asked me who the fuck I was. I start to say something but the words die on my tongue when she appears in front of me.
" It's not true." Is all she says and she lets me in the house. And I let out a sigh of relief, thanking who ever that it wasn't true.
" Good" is all I say as I sit down on the couch, she tells me she taking her little brother back up stars and would be down in a second, and to take my shoes off in the house.
I let out a small laugh at the last thing she said when I know she can no longer hear me. A good 20 minutes go by before she's sat in front of me. I take the time to drink in her face, it's pale with mascara under her eyes, dry tears and lips, and most of all, her eyes, they were hurt.
" Joe what do you want? You already told me you can't do this with me and I understand. You don't want a public relationship and that's okay"
" No that's not true, not even a little A, I do want you, I truly do. I was just sacred you were using me as a rebound. Which I see now that you wouldn't, and I'm sorry. But please, tell me, did you see him tonight?"
" I already told you that the gossip sites are wrong, but, no Joe I didn't see him. I broke down on stage today because I can't handle this anymore so I had Niall pick me up and bring me here. I come here when I need time away." She explains to me,
" And Joe don't say that kinda shit just to make me not upset. It's okay that you don't want me, I'm a big girl I can deal with it."
Before she even has the chance to react I push my lips on hers, it's not like the kisses from before, I make it slow and hard, to show her how much I want her to be mine.
" okay then, we'll try" she smiles at me with a dark blush on her cheeks.
I finally know what it would go felt like to win the super bowl.

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