snow on the beach - g. weasley

3. the party

nothing to regret - robinson

" why we always gotta fret about it? there's nothing to regret about it "

My eyes adjust to the light and as they open. It's Saturday morning. The day of the party. I know I said I would go with Kai, but I'm not even sure if I'll be able to get out of bed. Today is a down day. I slowly roll out of bed, my muscles aching. Lana stumbles out of the shower, looking as fresh and dewy as ever.

"Damn, you look like shit" she states.

"Thanks Lana, appreciate it"

"Your welcome- What happened yesterday? I didn't see you at dinner?"

Last night at dinner I felt sick to my stomach. All the stress from the week hit me like a ton of bricks. I've felt off ever since the party. The so-called party that I did something at, according to George anyways.

A sinking feeling slams into my stomach and grief consumes me. What did I do? Why am I the problem?

"I didn't feel good, was super stressed and stuff, you know. Exams are coming up and with the whole George thing made it difficult to function yesterday"

"I get that, but Indiana, you have to eat something, I don't remember seeing you eat anything yesterday either"

She was right. I didn't eat anything yesterday; I didn't want to worry her too much. I knew she was already worried about me over the whole George thing.

" I ate in between classes. I didn't want to see anyone at lunch so I went to the kitchens to eat instead."

Lie.

She eyed me suspiciously. "Okay..." she didn't seem entirely convinced. I didn't want to worry her though, it would only be a one time thing.

Right?

"Lana I promise," I plead, "I'm fine. I'm just down about the breakup, that's all." I was trying to convince myself of this as well. A part of me was telling me that there was more to it than the break up. A piece of the puzzle was missing. And I knew, I fucking knew that it was the reason George and I broke up.

"At the party tonight, we're going to find someone to rock your world. The only way to get over someone is to get on top of someone else" She cracks a smile

"I can't believe I'm saying this but, maybe you're right. I still don't even know if I'm going to go though, I just don't feel completely up for it yet." I start, "I promised my Herbology partner Kai that I would go-"

"Kai? As is Kai Wells?! That hot, mysterious, Slytherin who has never had a girlfriend and is presumably a virgin?" She interrupts.

"Yes, him. He's actually really nice once you get talking with him, Herbology was probably the only good part of my day yesterday"

"Not even seeing me?" She jokes "But seriously Indiana, you have to go to that party with Kai, George will get so jealous. Is it like a date type thing? Or are you two just going as friends"

"Just friends, I don't want any romantic connection with him. I can see him being a really good friend in the future."

"So he isn't off limits?" Lana asks with a small smirk

"He is indeed," I pause, "on the table." I confirm, mirroring her smile.

"Good to know"

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At around midday, Lana and I are sitting by the lake, reading books and keeping eachother company, occasionally looking up from the book to talk about outfit ideas for the party this evening.