Chaotic Little HotShot [Completed]

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"What's going on?!"

I sat up lazily, looking at Kinn who seemed pissed for some reason.

"What do you mean? What's going on?"

"I'm asking you that Tankhun! What's all of this?!" Kinn raised his hand in a sweeping motion across the room as he asked me.

I looked around and then ah, it finally hit me. The room was a fucking mess. I had brought my guards out last night to party and we came back, especially me crazy pissed drunk. Old memories had been triggered and I ended up making a mess of the room. And promptly fell asleep like Cinderella.

"I made a mess. I get someone to clean it up."

"You cannot be doing this. Not every single time. Drinking. Being drunk. Thinking about what happened. Then making a mess. Repeat cycle. It's been 15 years. Let it go."

I looked at Kinn, oddly, an eerie calm coming over me.

"15 years? Let it go?"

"Tankhun, you know that's not what I meant. What..I meant.."

"Get out Kinn. I never expected anyone to understand my pain. What I went through. 15 years or not, only I know how icky I feel on a daily basis. Fuck off!"

I finally screamed at him and he took a step back. He knew he had struck a raw nerve. He turned but he turned back only to tell me that he is replacing my usual guards with Ken till I stop this partying shit at least.

I just looked at him and didn't say a word. So what if I can't party? I shall resort to cutting myself.

Anything that will dull my pain. No one truly knew or understood my pain, if I may say.

And they may never.

One man's sorrow
Is just another man's story
One that is meant to be retold
At the dining table
Or in passing

But does one truly empatize?
Or feel the stifling and crippling pain?
I doubt so.

Like I said
Passed around like a fleeting piece of gossip
Stored away like how a hamster stores food
Only to be brought out when it's needed
And hidden otherwise.

I watched as Ken came in. He looked at me stonily and I threw him the exact same look. I knew he hated babysitting me. They all did. They all found themselves too good for me. I just stood up and walked away after having called the maid to come clean.

Ken needed to be here on Kinn's orders. But it didn't mean I had to talk or listen to him.

If I had my way, I would have left this world a long time ago. I wonder why I was even saved. For who? For what?

I didn't know it then but in time to come, I would come to realize that maybe having Ken was the best decision ever.

With that, this ends. If you wish to see it as a full length story, comment and like. Till another story, till another #lovewinsall