forever (christopher sturniolo)

chapter 11

it was saturday evening and i got a text from chris telling me to come over. i of course listen.

i ring the doorbell and marylou answered it.

"are you here to see chris" she asks welcoming me in

"i guess you could say that" i say giving her a smile then going to the kitchen to see chris standing there

"how'd you know i was in here" he asks confused

"i didn't, i just came to get some water" i reply

"oh, well i missed you" he says pulling me into a really tight hug

he's saying that because we haven't seen each other since wednesday because he wasn't feeling good.

"do you feel a little better" i ask him

"yeah, probably would have felt better faster if you were here" he says hugging me tighter

"i'll take notes for next time" i say giggling

chris then pulls away from the hug looking genuinely sad.

"are you okay" i ask him

"yeah i just had a dream that felt so real the other night" he says

"tell me about it" i say

"come upstairs" he says grabbing my hand and gently pulling me.

i follow him.

"so the other night.. i had a dream.. that you met a new boy while i was home sick, and you just stopped talking to me.. forever." he says sadly

"and you might call me dramatic, but my feelings for you are so real that it pains me so much to see you talking to anyone but me. i've literally been crying about it even tho it was just a dream. i never want to lose you, livy. and i hope you know that i love you more than anyone in the world. please just never leave me. i wouldn't be able to make it without you" chris says hugging me really tight

i start getting a bit emotional from his speech.

"chris, you're not dramatic at all. and i know i tease you and laugh at you, a lot. but my feelings are just as real as yours are. i love you to death and i wouldn't ever be able to physically or mentally never talk to you again, let alone have a connection with another boy stronger than ours. i promise you i'll never leave you and please don't cry over me again. there's no need to, i love you so fucking much and you're literally irreplaceable." i say hugging him tighter

i see tears in his eyes and i feel some filling mine.

we just hug each others for the next 30 minutes and i feel so bad that he didn't tell me sooner. i could've been here for him.

after we pull away from our long and tight hug i give him a quick peck on the lips and i pull away but he pulls me in again.

he hugs my waist and i hug his neck.

i don't know how he does it. the effects he has on me are crazy. he could literally make me do anything and i wouldn't complain at all. as long as it makes him happy. his lips are so soft. every time i feel them on mine i feel things i've never ever felt before. i love this boy so much.

chris's thoughts
she went in for a quick kiss, but that wasn't enough for me. i craved her touch. i pull her closer to me and i can feel all of me on me. it feels nice. i can't believe i've been missing out on this feeling basically my whole life.

i hear her quietly groan and it causes me to smile against her lips.

i know she told me not to cry over her, but if i actually did ever lose her.. i'd probably do worse then just cry.