[Goddammit Meg, open your fucking eyes!]
Again, tw for very sensitive topics.
It was Deuz, again..
Deuz: "Fuck! Are you crazy!? You're bleeding out, you could die!" he was using a wet, cold cloth to stop my bleeding and seemed to be on the phone with someone.
"Chill out Deuz...I'm fine. I'm stronger than you think."
Deuz: "This is not about you being strong or not. This is about you sitting here waiting for death and not even trying to do anything about it. How do you think the guys will feel?"
"Why would they care? They hate me!"
Deuz: "Where did you get that from? Meg, they love you! They've been worried sick trying to call you! Gosh, what's wrong with you lately...?"
"Nothing!"
Deuz: "Meg, you know they love you. They'll be worried sick!"
"I DON'T CARE! You're only telling me about them! And what about me!? It's always what everyone wants and what everyone thinks but no one even asks me how I am! What I WANT!"
He stood shocked for a minute, staring at my face without words. At this point I had started crying
" I DON'T WANT TO LIVE OKAY? I'M SICK OF IT. I'M SICK OF HAVING TO BE THE BEST BUT ALWAYS FAILING, BEING COMPARED TO OTHER PEOPLE, ALWAYS BEING ABANDONED! I'M SICK OF LIVING WITH THE GUILT. I'M SICK OF PUNCHING THE MIRROR BECAUSE I CAN'T STAND TO LOOK AT MYSELF, I'M SICK OF BEING AN INCONVENIENCE, I'M SICK OF EVERYTHING! I WISH I HAD JUST FUCKING DIED RIGHT THERE!! YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA HOW BAD THAT SHIT WAS. HOW SHITTY IT WAS TO HAVE TO ALWAYS BE THERE FOR MYSELF BECAUSE NO ONE ELSE WAS. MY PARENTS WERE GONE, AND MY FRIENDS ALWAYS END UP ABANDONING ME FOR BETTER PEOPLE."
tears fell down my cheeks, more and more rushing. I looked like a faucet.
Deuz had started crying as well, shocked and hugged me strongly, while still making sure I didn't bleed out
I hugged back, crying in his shoulder
"I don't want to do this anymore.."
"it'll be okay Meg... I promise." he comforted me
I felt weaker, trying to not close my eyes
"Meg...?" He asked, worried
I didn't respond. I couldn't form words.
I started closing my eyes
"Meg don't you dare, open your eyes!"
I couldn't.
[Then blood started coming out my mouth.]
YOU ARE READING
Forgotten Misery(Fnafhs, Foxangle)
RandomA Foxangle story with a lot of angst. It's an au of mine, of course. I'd say more but it'd spoil everything. It's the second time I'm writing this because I lost all my progress
