Grandice Stories

he's not the one for you. then who is?

hi!! been a minute right? this sorry is about Candice being with her new bf (JR) and Grant not liking it because he doesn't think that he is good enough for her. which he isn't. so this is their conversation about that.
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Candice POV
In between scenes Grant and I like to hang out and watch whatever we can find on TV. We also talk about what is going on in our lives and I always get to see very cute photos of Juni. I was nervous when Grant got quiet and looked like he wanted to talk about something important.
" Grant? You're doing that thing where you get quiet before you ask me something important. Is everything okay?" I look at him with concern.

" I just don't understand what you see in this guy. He is not a great person, you know that right?" Grant asks me.

" What do you mean he is not a great person? In comparison to you? Yeah, he doesn't measure up. But on the grand scale of things he is a nice and fun guy." I reply.

" As a friend, I just don't like the way that he is treating you," he says.

" Oh, so we are those friends now that feel like it's okay to comment on each other's relationship? We weren't those friends to you a couple of years ago." I simply reply to him.

"What is that supposed to mean?" he asks

"Oh I don't know when I was trying to tell you about a certain someone who I thought was not with you for the right reasons, you didn't want to hear it," I tell him.

" This is different. He publicly calls you out on his social media saying how terrible of a person you are and I am just worried how it's affecting your future" he exclaims.

" You don't need to worry about me. You have a wife and child to worry about" I tell him

" I will always be worrying about you C. You know that all I want for you is to be happy" he tells me

"Well being with JR right now in my life is what is making me happy," I tell him

"I don't think that this is right for you. He is so below you and you deserve a guy that loves and cherishes you" he exclaims 

"Grant, I had that. With you. When we were together, it was the happiest  I had ever been. I told you that I was okay after we ended things, but I guess it's showing  now that I wasn't okay" I plead to him

" We mutually agreed that ending things so that we didn't mess up the chemistry and the show was the best thing to do. I thought we both thought it was the best thing to do," he says as I remember the conversation as it has replayed in my head every night before  I go to sleep.

"Maybe at the time, we didn't know what we had. We should have tried harder, we might have made this work." I tell him.

"Why didn't you tell me this sooner?" he asks.

" Grant, what was I supposed to do? We ended things and then not even two months later, you had a girlfriend who was prettier and more available to be with you. I didn't want to say anything then because  I thought  that you would think that I was just jealous." I tell him.

"Okay but what about after LA and I had been together for almost a year, why didn't  you say anything?" he ask

"I didn't want to be the one who confessed my love for you when at that point you were in a serious relationship. You would come to me and ask me what you should get for anniversaries and birthdays. It seemed like you had found who you needed. I then began to think that me confessing to you wouldn't change anything because you could never love me as you love her. You were so happy. I didn't want to be the person who ruined that for you." I tell him.

" So this entire time, those feelings that we shared have stayed?" he asks.

" Yeah, sorta. I have been able to push them down and put on a face. I am an actor. I just want you to be happy and I knew that if you knew I was unhappy, you would be constantly trying to make me happy again." I try to tell him.

" So, you are trying to get over me by being with a guy who is terrible for you?" he asks

"He is the best I can do right now. I lost my everything when you got married. All the hope and thinking that I did every time I saw you, was gone. Grant, I will always be in love with you. You have shown me a love like no other and I will never be able to get that again. I am doing the best I can to try to find a guy like you and he is the best I can do. " I say.

Grant looked at me. His eyes were tearing up and he was at a loss for words.

" Candice, I am so sorry. When we ended things, I didn't want to. I would rather have had the show end and be poor than have things end up like this. I said yes to ending things because you were the one who brought it up and I thought it was the right thing to do. I then met LA and she felt like a person who would get me the closest to anyone who could be like you. Those feelings that we shared have always been a part of me too. You are and have every single day been my whole world. I love my wife and I love the life that we have, but it will never be like what we share." he says to me while never breaking eye contact.

" I don't want you to give up your life. We have both found a way to move on. We can continue like this, it won't be much longer until we aren't seeing each other every day. This will get easier." I tell him.

" I don't want it to be easier, I want my life to be better. I just don't know what to do." he pleads

"We need to get over these feelings. There is no future for us." I say trying to not let him ruin his life.

" Don't say that. I will never be over you. We are never going to be over." he insists.

" Grant, do you hear yourself? You are married and have a beautiful baby girl." I tell him.

" Trust me this is not what I thought this conversation was going to turn into. But, what am I teaching my daughter by staying in a life that I want to have with someone else? I want to show my daughter that we only have one life and we should spend that with the person that we love most in this world. You." he says.

At this point, I am in complete shock. Why would this man give up his who entire life just to be with me? He doesn't know what he is doing.

"I can't let you do this. I won't let you ruin your life for me." I insist.

" I am not ruining my life for you, I am making life better with you. I love you. Please believe me when I say that I love you. You are my everything and you always will be." he says as he grabs my hand and places it on my leg.

" Grant, I love you so much that it hurts my entire soul. I don't want to make the same mistake again and lose you. But, where do we go now?" I ask him.

" We spend as much time as possible together. We get back to us. The truth is that LA and I are separated right now. We are just trying to see if this is the marriage that both of us want. I want to be with you, forever. I will call her and talk her through what is going on. She was the one who initiated the separation in the first place, so I don't see it as coming out of the blue. We separated because she felt like I had never solved feelings from my past and it was hindering the chance for us to move forward. She was right, I never got over the love of my life." he says with tears streaming down her face.

I move closer to him on the couch and stare into his perfect green eyes. I lean in to kiss him and he meets me halfway. My hands move up to his hair and his hands go toward my back. I smile as I kiss him and pull away.

" I love you, Grant, so much. I am so sorry that it took me so long to say that." I say as I continue to cry.

" I love you, Candice. You are everything to me and I can't wait for us to start living our lives how they should have been lived for a long time," he says to me.

I turn around and place my head on his lap and just stare up at him. He smiles down at me and runs his fingers through my hair. 

" You and me. Forever and always." I say to him as I close my eyes, more relaxed and at peace than I have been for a long time.

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