Scrubs

Chapter 10; w

What feels like hours pass as I lay on top of Grey with my head on his chest just listening to his heart beating and tracing the lines of his tattoo. He's pulled the blankets up over us and is holding me with his eyes closed. This is the first time in years I've felt complete bliss. I want this moment to last forever but we both know we will have to return to reality and so I will do my best to savor it.

His finger gently brush up and down my back and I feel him place a kiss into the top of my head before he speaks. "So what now?"

"What do you mean?" I question.

"Well I don't know about you but I can't just pretend all of this never happened and I wouldn't want to anyways. But what do you want to do?" I shift my face up to look at him and meet his crystal blue eyes.

"I don't know. I don't want to pretend nothing ever happened but we can't have people at work finding out about us." I answer.

"Why not? It's not like they would care anyways." He questions raising an eyebrow.

"Management would. They would make one of us change shifts and I don't know about you but moving to day shift or night shift doesn't really fit into my schedule."

"I guess that's true. Though we're kinda off to a bad start considering we left together and will be showing back up together tomorrow afternoon." He chuckles slightly.

"Yeah. I didn't think of that. We could always say you gave me a ride this one time because my car broke down." I suggest.

He nods. "I suppose that's a believable excuse. But I'm sure there will still be rumors."

I scoff. "As if there aren't already plenty of rumors anyways. Someone here isn't always the most subtle with his innuendos." I sit up straddling him once more.

"I can't help it. It's your fault for being so.... you." He places his hands on my hips and bucks up against me causing me to gasp.

He smirks and squeezes his fingers into my soft flesh. "You are one charming human being Grey Vaughn." I bend down and plant a soft kiss on his lips. He then reaches one hand up to the back of my neck holding me in place as he kisses back passionately. My heart pounds and my stomach flutters. He makes me feel as light as a feather and as heavy as a bag of bricks at the same time.

Suddenly he flips us over and is hovering over me, his eyes piercing deep into mine. "We may have to pretend nothing has changed at work but everything has changed for me." He says as he strokes my cheek. "Why's that?" I blink up at him swallowing hard. "Because I want to be with you." He kisses my neck awakening my entire body.

"I want to treat you the way you should be treated." He kisses my collar bone and I squirm in anticipation.

"Show you what a real man is." He kisses my shoulder while positioning his now hard member between my thighs.

"Kiss you." Another kiss is placed on my lips.

"Love you." My body goes rigid at the word and he suddenly pushes into me causing me to gasp and throw my arms around his shoulders holding on for support.

This time he thrusts into me slower, less eager. My legs shake at the agonizing pace. He sucks on my collarbone as a hand reaches down and starts circling my clit. The combination along with his strangled sounds are intoxicating.

This man is a literal drug to me. I barely got a taste before and I couldn't keep away. Now that we've dove in head first I don't know if I'll ever be able to come down from the high he gives me. I can feel the muscles in his shoulders and back flexing beneath my fingertips as he pushes into me. What makes my senses go haywire is his grunting and groaning in my ear and against my neck. It causes everything in me to vibrate deliciously.

He flips us without breaking contact and sits up so I'm straddling him while we embrace one another. This allows him to kiss my chest and suck on my nipples while I ride his cock. Both of our bodies are now slick with sweat and he leans forward and licks from my collarbone to my jaw causing me to shiver. The act brings me right to the edge in an instant and he takes my mouth in his devouring my moans as I ride out my high. He follows shortly after and we slowly rock into each other for another moment.

He lays me back and kisses my forehead before rolling out of bed and padding to the bathroom. When he returns I head into the bathroom myself to clean up before rejoining him in the bed. I fight myself for a moment before asking him the burning question. "Are you saying you love me?"

He's quiet for a moment. "I do love you. But I'm not saying I'm in love with you. Not yet at least."

"What's the difference?"

"I love you as a person and care about you deeply but I can't say I want to be with you for the rest of my life. That would be irrational. I could see myself getting there, I just know I'm not there at this moment in time."

For an instant I feel a pang of disappointment although I know that was a perfectly reasonable answer. "Well I love you too.. I think I have for a while but couldn't face the truth because it was scary. It still is." I respond truthfully.

His eye soften. "Of course it's scary, it's scary because it's something of value to you. To me as well. But if you can trust me even in the slightest, we may be able to overcome that fear together.." He smirks cheesily. He then pulls me in tight and holds me to his chest as we fall asleep.