~smile through the pain~ F.w (Completed!)

32 ~numb~

⚠️ warning: IV, surgery⚠️

-i woke up from a long deserved rest-
'What time is it?' I asked to myself as i grabbed my phone
'Oh 7:00.. i better get up' i say to myself
-i got up, put on some clothes and went downstairs to the kitchen, my co-stars were already there-
'Look who decided to show up' Caleb said
'Oh shut up!' I say annoyed
'Someone is grumpy today' Sadie said
'I SAID SHUT UP!' i say angry
'Dude! Dont blame Sadie' noah said
'I'm going to get some fresh air' i say
'Yeah that's needed' Gaten says
'WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?' i say while running up to Gaten but Caleb pulled me back
'You listen to me Finn, go outside, get out youre anger okay?' Caleb said shoving me to the door
'Fine!' I say while going out
'Fuck this!' I say as i stepped outside, it's freezing
-i went on a walk around the cast house thinking of stuff, i have a appointment at the hospital tomorrow, i'm scared. What if i'll never get better? What if i'll die?... no Finn dont think like that..but still, no,no,no! I'l be fine...you're overthinking Finn-
-i quikly head inside-
'I'm sorry Gaten' i say
'It's okay Finn' he says
'I'm sorry i shouldn't have done that, i just dont feel so great' i say
'I already said that it is okay' he says
'I wont be here tomorrow' i say
'What? Why?' Noah asks
'Hospital' i say
'Again?' Millie asks
'Yes, unfortunatly' i say
'What do you need to do at the hospital?' Nathalia asked
'Just a check-up' i say
'Finn, i just noticed but you're really pale' Gaten says
'I'm fine' i say with tears in my eyes because i didn't want to lie to my friends but i had to
'Finn, being this pale as you are right now isn't good, not even for you' Maya said
'We'll see tomorrow' i say
'Do you have the feeling something is wrong?' Joe asked
'Well i dont really think so, but you know' i say not knowing what to say
'I'm going to my room' i say
'Okay, see you around Finn' Sadie says
'Hmm' i hum

~time skip~

'Go on Finn' my mom said as i got up
'Yes i'm going' i say annoyed
-i walked to a examination room with doctor Smith-
'How are you Finn?' She asks while closing the door
'To be honest i dont feel very good' i say not wanting to look at doctor Smith
'You can tell me, i'm only trying to help you' she says
'I..i just..yeah...i dont know anymore' i say looking down at my shoes as i sit on the bed
'Lets do some tests and i'll see if i can find anything in the results okay?' She says
'O..okay' i say sitting as still as possible for the doctor to take my blood
-she put the needle in my arm and waited for the blood to go in the tube, it took a while but eventually she took out the needle and measured my blood pressure-
'You're going to get a CT scan now' she says
'Okay..' i say
'If you could follow me' she says motioning for me to follow her
-we walk into the big hall and a few doors down the hall we stop and head in the room-
'You ready?' She asks
'Yes' i say while she silently puts the IV in my hand and orders me to lay down on the bed
'There we go' she says while the bed moves
-i close my eyes and start to think of my friends who are at the cast house right now, probably laughing and not thinking of him right now-

~at the cast house~

-Finn's friends werent laughing and happy how he thought, they were rather concerned and scared for Finn-
'What if there is indeed something wrong? I dont want to think of losing Finn' Millie asks
'It's probably nothing, just a fever or something else, dont be to concerned Millay' Noah said while attempting a british accent which failed miserably
'Noah is right, It's probably something that will heal quikly' Maya says
'You're right' Millie says

~with Finn~

Finn's pov

-they couldn't have been further from the truth, the doctor just recieved the results from his blood and the CT scan and they weren't that positive as expected-
'Do you want me to show it Finn?' She asks while going through the results with me, Nick and my parents
'Okay' i say not knowing what kind of shock was waiting for me
'so your creatinine is around the 200 as you can see and albumin is also to high to be normal, around 60, you dont have enough Calcium in you're blood either And we also found carbon dioxide in you're lungs, we'll have to surgically remove it' she says while she scolls through the other results
'W..what?' I say while Nick hugs me tight, i cry in Nicks arms while he holds on to me
'I'm going to be here with you Finn' he says
-after a while we pull out of our comforting hug-
'I want you to note that this surgery is quite risky and there is a possebility his body will give up or fall into a coma' she says
'You mean that he can die?' Nick asks
'Yes there is a possebility' she says
'So if you mess up he'll die? Is that really what you're saying?' Nick asks
'Yes, if you put it that way, but we'll do everything to help him. He will be fine' she says
'Finn? Are you okay with it?' Nick asks
'I..if it helps..y..yes' i say while wiping my tears away with my hand
'Were already done to start surgery' doctor Smith says
'Come on Finn' Nick says pulling me up from the chair
'I'm scared' i say
'I'm here with you, i'll be there when they do the surgery okay, i'll be right there holding your hand if you want to' Nick says while we walk to the operating room
'You can come with me to get you ready for surgery' doctor Smith says as she motions me over to a little room next to the operating room where i change for surgery
-after a while i go back, i was wearing a long white shirt and white socks-
'Go lay on the table' doctor Smith says
-i lay on the table as told-
'Nick i'm scared' i say
'Hey i'm here, take my hand' Nick says while putting out his hand for me to hold it while they numb me
'Finn try to relax, just let you're body take control. Just relax you're muscles' doctor Smith says
-the surgeon who's doing the surgery gives me a painfull shot in my neck to numb me, some nurses started to hook me up to machines to keep track of my body-
'I'm sorry Nick but i need to ask you to leave' doctor Smith says
'Nick please!' I cry out
'I'm sorry Finn, i'm going to need to leave' he says
'Why? Weren't you going to stay with me?' I ask
'Sorry Finn those are the safety procedures' doctor Smith says
'Dont worry, i'll be there with you after surgery' Nick says while opening the door
'Bye Nick' i say to Nick while he closes the door
'Finn, close your eyes now' doctor Smith says
'It may feel a little weird, but you wont feel to much, only when we take out the carbon dioxide you'll feel something, just say if it hurts' doctor Smith says while she lifts up my shirt and lays a towel with a cut in it on the middle of my torso
'You ready?' She asks me
'Y..yeah' i say
-i feel my skin being cut open, it tingled a little, after that i had to bite down because it began to hurt, they cut open a part of my lungs and put a tube in the little cut they made, i felt air slip away from my lungs, it was the carbon dioxide 'please stop, it hurts!' I scream out while the pain became unbearable, my body felt limb and my vision started to cloud white. Then i saw a light my breathing started to get shallow and my heart felt like it was in my throat, my throbbing lungs also didn't make it any better, and the needle in my hand was piercing my skin. I felt like i was going to die, i was barely hanging on. I felt my life slip away from me, i tried reaching out but my muscles ached to much and the heart monitor i was attached to started to beep out of control, all the other machines started to show red symbols and it went completely white infront of my eyes....was i dead?

~time skip~

'With a heavy heart we have to inform you that our very own Finn wolfhard lost the battle against a lung infection today, may we all grieve' this anouncement could be heard all over set
'NO!' Millie broke down as soon as she heard the anouncement, Noah, Sadie, Nathalia, Maya and Jamie were in the kitchen when Millie came running in with tears falling down her face, the anouncement just got of in the cast house, 'he's gone' Millie said crying into Noah's arms. Gaten, Caleb and the rest of the cast even the Duffer brothers went to the front of the cast house to have a moment of grief for Finn, what they didn't know was that Finn wasn't really dead-

~with Finn~

-i expected the light to stay and that i would die, but it slowly faded. I wasn't dead.... i started to take short breaths, there were doctors surounding me when i opened my eyes, what happened? How wasn't i dead? The questions raced through my mind-
'Finn!' I heard my mom say inbetween loud sobs, even Nick was crying...
'N..nick' i manage to say
'i'm here Finn, i told you that i would be there after surgery, remember?' He said with tears falling down his cheeks
'I..i .r..rem..member' i say
-Nick smiled at me with tears still falling down his cheeks-
'I'm.. o..okay' i say while taking a shaky breath
-they brought me to the ER department after that they gave me a sleeping pill and i got hooked up to machines, after i took the pill i started to doze of as soon as i let my body relax under the covers. I was wondering if my friends knew i was alive, i thought for few seconds before my body signaled for me to sleep so i shut off my thoughts and closed my eyes, dozing of in a tight but peacefull sleep-

A/n
I needed to respost this because it was messed up, hope you enjoyed and sorry for the late chapter
It was wild, i litteraly cried while making this. Well i hope you arent to traumatized 😅 see you next chapter
Byebye broschicho's 👋
Wordcount 1905
Holy crap what a long chapter 😮