The love you'd find in books | Regulus Black

Bonus chapter: Regulus' letter

Why would I start this note by "hi" or something when we all know it's going to be burned right away?

Soon, Y/N and I are going to be alone here, Sirius and his friends are going to leave. Y/N's pretty stressed about it and keep fainting but I'm not as worried about it as she is; I'm mostly worried about her, to be honest...
She lost a lot of weight, haven't talked to anyone in a month, from the look of her face she hasn't slept in a while either...

She thought about breaking up with me.
She ASKED me to break up with her.
How and why would I do that knowing she's the most important thing in my life? Not even my studies or friends are as important as her.
I'd wait my whole life for her to be ready to go out with me again if she ever decides to break up with me. No matter how long it takes, I'd wait.

I don't understand what's happening.
Why it's all falling apart and why I can't fix it.

I just want to go back to the night Y/N and I first talked, the night we really met, the night we discovered each other by talking about our interests. I want to go back to our first year, when we were about to turn 11 because we're born late, how we were the youngest of the whole school and how we'd laugh about it, how we used to watch the sunrise and the sunset... I just want to go back to how unconscious and happy we were even though we each had our own problems.
I want to live through every memory again because they're the greatest moments of my life.

She healed my broken heart and yet I never healed hers.

We weren't happy kids, we had problems and both used to self-harm already, yet we were way happier than we were now...

Time really changes people and not in a good way.
I'm not getting any better and nor is she.