I Am Not A Kid

Chapter 35-Lonely

The days went by one by one and there formed a wall of silence in between taehyung and Jungkook.

Jungkook kept a fair distance from tae as much as possible.He tried not to approach the boy unless it is necessary and he didn't spend time with the boy like he used to,also no more bunny smile much to taehyung's dismay.

It hurted tae more than anything.Taehyung was tired ,sad ,and lonely .He missed his Jungkook.The way hyung avoided him hurted like hell.But it made him more stubborn,more strong....

Taehyung was lying on his bed thinking about his school.So much had happened in school that he really wanted to talk to Jungkook.He wanted hyung's opinion, advice and guidance.But Jungkook was avoiding him like a ghost that he don't know what to do.

Tae sat abruptly feeling irritated and looked at the clock.It was a sunday evening and yet he didn't saw a blink of Jungkook.

He knew Jungkook is in the room beside him doing God's know what!!.Why hyung is so busy?? Why can't Jungkook come out and say something to him!! He huffed deciding to speak with Jungkook even whatever it takes.

Tae barged in Jungkook's room to see hyung on the couch with a laptop on his lap and more files were shattered around him.

Tae stride forward and stood infront of Jungkook challengingly.If hyung isn't going to talk to him ,he will make hyung to talk.

But to dismay Jungkook didn't looked up at him nor said a word.Tae cleared his throat making Jungkook aware he is there but got no response again.

Tae tapped his foot on floor making some noise but still got no response!!

Tae rubbed his forehead taking deep breath.His looked down realising his boldness and courage shattering before him.He can feel some wetness  on the corners of his eyes already.He wasn't used to this avoiding.Hyung could easily make him weak....

But he won't give in so easily.Tae sighed ignoring the hurt and snatched Jungkook's laptop from his lap and slapped close it.

He could feels Jungkook's intense stare on him atlast.Tae rolled his eyes sitting on the bed opposite to Jungkook folding his arms around chest.

"Taehyung,what is this?". Jungkook poked his tongue on cheek, rasing his brow.Jungkook was busy and was not at all pleased by tae disturbing him right then.

"Also It would be nice if you have knocked before entering the room". Jungkook shook his head.

"I didn't had to knock before,so what's changed now, hyung?".Tae asked demandingly.He wanted answer,he wanted to know what is going on between them.

"I heard you were class topper and yet your level of intelligence is lower than a kindergartener". Jungkook scoffed making tae frown."Is it difficult to understand I don't want you roaming around here for no good reason and want some privacy for myself?". Jungkook stared keenly at other making tae gulp.

Tae look down at his lap averting his gaze unknowingly.He didn't liked Jungkook being mean to him.Jungkook wasn't like that,Hyung knew tae don't like when Jungkook is scary.Then again Jungkook is being mean.Tae bite his lips trying to control his sadness.

Jungkook runs his fingers through hairs when tae didn't spoke anything but simply looked down.He could see taehyung's face becoming pale and being nervous.

"Taehyungie ?".

Tae instantly looked upwards hearing the smooth voice of his hyung after a long time.There was the same warmth he used to know,the same gentleness.

But Jungkook's face was void of any kind of emotions ,even though that voice had the softness.Once again tae become disappointed seeing those empty eyes.

Tae don't know what happened or what's going on.Jungkook was so distant after the holidays.Hyung is making him sad and making him lonely.

"J-Jungkook h-hyung". Taehyung's voice trembled that Jungkook nearly didn't heard him. Jungkook raised his brow trying to make out the mumbling words of the boy.

Tae gulped pushing back his nervousness,trying hard to hold up to Jungkook's gaze.Tae never wanted to confess his feelings like this ,but if it's not now he don't know how to make everything right.His heart is paining and he wants his Jungkook hyung back.

Tae stared into Jungkook's soul feeling the tension.Jungkook was sternly looking back at him that it made him more nervous."Hyung, I lov-".

The sudden sound of  doorbell made tae startle.He gaped his mouth feeling lack of words as he look down instantly .His confidence were long gone and he become tensed.

Jungkook sighed feeling irritated of the sudden disturbance but nevertheless didn't said anything.

"Taehyung,Let me open the door". Jungkook excused himself and went away from there leaving tae alone.

Taehyung clutched his heart cursing himself for going to do something stupid.He must be crazy!!

He knew he should make his confession memorable not a bad memory.But here he was going to ruin everything by himself.He wants Jungkook to desire him first,then a lovely confession...

Tae tried to control his loud beating heart and nervousness at bay but he couldn't.Even his hands become sweaty because of his earlier drama.

He walked back and forth around the room taking deep breath and fanning himself for fresh air.He should calm himself down before Jungkook coming back there and have a normal conversation with hyung, a conversation that he didn't tend to be so emotional like earlier.

Tae waited patiently calming and steading himself.He will be nervous all over again if he sat doing nothing that he tried to make him busy by looking around the room, rolling over the bed and also going through the paper that were on the couch.

Taehyung didn't get what it is in those papers even after reading it five time that he put it down rolling his eyes.Who wants to know that anyway?.

Strangely everything was getting on his nerve!! Tae sighed leaning back to the couch.

He pouted staring at the clock, concentrating on it's ticking sound.Jungkook didn't came back even after so long that tae wondered standing up on his feet.

When taehyung was halfway down to stairs he heard a soft laughing of a lady.He quirked his brow in confusion.Was there is a guest at this hour?And if there is why didn't Jungkook hyung called him?

Taehyung quicken his steps ,only to see Jungkook with a beautiful woman.A small smile plastered on Jungkook's lips mirroring the women's as he talked.

Tae furrowed his brow looking back and forth of  his hyung and the lady.Is hyung being serious?Why didn't Jungkook called him if they have a guest? Shouldn't they have to serve their guest something?

Tae rolled his eyes thinking how stupid Jungkook is.There is some new snacks that maid jiya noona made before going home,so it would be enough for now.Also he has to make some coffee fastly for everyone.Tae thought with a smile and was going to go towards them,but his steps ceased.

Tae eyes bulged in shock seeing  the sight infront of him.His vision become blurry that he could no longer see the women in jungkook's arms.Tae bite his lips wiping the tears in his eyes thinking it may all be some bad dreams he is having.Tae slightly pinched his arm trying to wake him up from his dream.

But the sight of Jungkook holding that women close to his chest didn't gone even after so many pinches.

Tae could only stare at them helplessly.........