Till Death

Chapter 9

Fourth pov

"I saw my ex today" I say staring at Gem he furrow his eyebrows,I waited for him to say something but he just stared at me "he's names is Talay Nartonat" I say the name that has been haunting my day taking a deep breath before I continued

"I started developing feelings for him because he always protects me,I was a menace,bullies were very much attracted to me "I say chuckling as i look away from him staring at his chest unable to hold his gaze as I say next words "I thought he was the one, I loved him,I really love him" I close my eyes as I remember the times we were together "I was sixteen at the time we started dating that's when I tried my luck kissing him first on his seventeen birthday I was surprised he kissed me back but also happy,he suggests we date which I accepted with everything in me" I say looking back at Gem

"We were in the closet, none of us had the courage to come out and I was okay with that,we went on dates,do want couples normally do suddenly he changed he became very aggressive but I was blinded by love always making excuses for his actions thinking I was the one at fault" I say blinking back my tears as I swallow the lump that I felt on my throat "then one day I went to school people started staring at me"

*Flashback

My skin crawls with the amount of eyes I felt as I walked through the school highway

"What's happening?" Jay whispers as we walk as people brought out their phones taking pictures of us laughing

"Well isn't it the Gay boy" a voice says as my body runs cold as I stop walking

"Fag" "queer"  were the words that I heard from people before my phone beeps

"Fourth is this you?" I look at jay as he stares at me showing me his phone,it was a video of me and Talay kissing the last time we want on a date his face wasn't showing just his back while my face was in full display.

I felt my eyes water as I ran out ignoring his calls going to look for Talay, I searched everywhere in school but couldn't find him I called him but he didn't reply,I gave up calling closing my eyes in frustration as tears kept flowing down my eyes I was unable to stop them,his ignoring me. This is not how I wanted it to be

"I always knew we were gay" I heard jay voice to see him coming to sit by me "and I know it's Talay in that video"

"How did you find me?" I asks wiping  my tears from my eyes

"how are you coping?" He asks instead of answering

"How did you know?"

"Have you seen you?" He says laughing I just stared at him in disbelief not really in the mood "sorry" he says before clearing his throat "I suspected you guys after his birthday when  you came out from his room flushed not able to keep eye contact and smiling when your eyes meet I noticed before then how you stare at him damn I was really jobless" he shakes his head "isn't it when you guys started?" He asks

"Yes" I whisper nodding wiping the tears that doesn't seems to stop

"I saw you guys one day at the amusement park and that confirm it for me

"Why didn't you ask me?"

"Why should I ask you,it's not my business if you like a boy or a girl, who you like is your issue love is love but society...." He says signing "have you spoken to Talay?"

I shake my head saying no "he's not in school and h-hes isn't picking" I stutter as another wave of sadness hit me

"Come here" he says pulling me to him "it's fine maybe he's busy, don't think to much" he finishes